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She had woken up rather early today, in nothing but her birthday suit once more, and this time she was not even on her bed, Maka was sprawled across that, while she was curled fetal in her fluffy blanket, on her floor in the corner of the room. With sunlight draped across her reclining body? The wind user did not really mind waking up in such a state, she hated the dark so waking up in the sunniest spot within her room was glorious, the basking heat from it helping to get her body temperature rising once more, and chasing sleep away. However she did not really feel like she had slept at all, which was weird because normally she had some image of a nightmare that almost broke through, or some fantasy she had to fight through upon waking up. This new start to the day was different, nothing entered her brain and she had no images in her head upon waking, something that had not happened since Marschal rescued her from being kidnapped. Each day since those fateful and terrible years? She had been plagued by them in her sleep, it was the whole reason she’d nearly been killed for a super fluffy blanket, all in the hopes she’d get a good night’s sleep without waking up drenched in cold sweat. While it had not brought back pleasant dreams, it had chased away the nightmares, rendering her slumber blackened. Had something brought back pleasant dreams to the wind sorceress thought? Yes, thought she wasn’t going to think about any of that, lest she start playing with her tail again, she didn’t want Maka waking up to that sight. Suddenly the thought of how her parents ever got any adult time when she was young entered into her mind, considering she often woke up in their room, nestled between them. Jiyu chuckled at her own silliness, wiping her hand across her forehead as she begun over to her dresser to pick out clothes for the day.

Normally Jiyu dressed in the same outfit day after day, some bikini top barely large enough to stuff her chest into, and daisy duke shorts. For some odd reason today, she’d made a different selection, one that might actually be worse than her normal clothing! Jiyu honestly had no idea where she had gotten the outfit in her drawer, but before long she was tying a necktie around the collar of a sleeveless dress, nimble fingers securing the detached sleeves, slipping her fan into one and her knife into the other. “Well I AM The Ace of Hearts.” she hummed it out slightly, swirling in a circle, before deciding she could afford to fix the hair piece into her hair as well, laying it right behind her bang’s and tying her hair into low pig tails with the ribbons used for securing it, some of her hair still left down her back so that it was in three parks. “This isn’t half bad, I suppose.” she blushed at her own image, laughing slightly , it wasn’t flat out suggestive like her normal way of dress, but it was adorable in it’s own right and not too suffocating.

Since she had decided that her ‘new’ outfit worked for the day, Jiyu picked up night hunt and her quiver from beside the dresser, swinging the sac of arrows over one shoulder and sliding the bow over the other. Closing her curtains, she exited the room, making her way groggily downstairs in order to get back breakfast from the silver moon cafe, so she could officially start her working day. Kazehime settled down for some cherry cured bacon, a single fish and fluffy eggs with orange juice. Balance breakfast right? Well for someone who was actually a carnivore, it was pretty close to one very healthy breakfast. Of course when the puppy sat down to eat her meal, tail wagging, was when the dream from her prior sleep started to come back to her, the request made to her by something she couldn’t see. Had she agreed to that request? Hmm she couldn’t remember, might as well go after she finished eating thought, it was about a time for a visit to the portals.
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“This is the place right?” she spoke to herself mostly, looking around the large span of portals surrounding her, she had been here once before, when one of the other guilds moved locations. Since than though? She had not visited this place, so it was refreshing to have the change in scenery. “Now which one is the right portal?” a ball of white light danced around her, trying to draw her towards the portal it desired and she guessed that since she came this far, she had nothing to lose from following a random ball of glowing. “I guess it’s this way.” she hummed it out, following the glowing orb as it lead her deeper into the portals, until she came to one that pulsed a soft green and emitted powerful magic. “This one than?” she was curious and needed something to do, curiosity could only kill cats, not dogs, so she was safe to sate her need for adventure. “Guess there isn’t really a way I can do research on what is beyond, unless I want to take forever, not happening.” since she had another tempting mission sprawled out right in front of her? Jiyu wanted to complete it swiftly! This time she was going in without research, which reminded her of the last time she just jumped into a portal, the fact she’d nearly been killed by angel’s. Oh well, heaven couldn’t be on the other side of this portal, the energy was different.

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Could Jiyu be considered a seasoned traveler in any sort of way? Well that was really an unknown sort of statement. On one hand she’d likely been to almost every country there was, at least once, on the other hand she’d also spent no actual time in places besides Rose Garden and Peace Village, her current and prior homes. The best way for someone to run away and never be found by the people who would look for them, that was to hop ships and never leave a paper trail, she had managed it for several long years, using at first the fact she was a child to get by, than using the fact she was an attractive woman to ensure her own survival. Jiyu would really never know if she could be called an experienced traveler  or not, but she always knew that when it came to ships she was beyond seasoned and in fact intended on getting her own boat eventually! In fact, the wind mage was saving all her money up for one personal ship, desiring the freedom to move around like that once more, and the ideal if she bought the most expensive thing on her ’to buy list’ everything else would seem less expensive! What else was on the list for purchase by the canine? Armor, considering what had happened during her last few missions she figured a bit more between her body and an enemy's tools might be required. Kazehime never wanted to lay on the ground and scream for an ally again, not like that, not with blood coming from her side and shoulder, actually needing the aid if she did not want to face her death. Accepting help? Was one thing, but needing it now that she was more powerful than ever, that was another thing entirely and one Jiyu was not willing to deal with whenever avoidable. Jiyu had no intention of kicking the bucket soon, and she also had no intention of crying for help every time she was in trouble, so the solution was to take measures to avoid trouble more often. Of course when you were someone who seemed irresistibly drawn to danger and like a beacon for it to come to you? That was kind of hard. So she had to take steps like Armor in order to make herself more self reliant, because her family had proven well enough that even the most reliable situations could quickly become twisted nightmares.

“Damn, persistent little light orb, I’m going alright? I’m going!” she almost stumbled through the pulsing portal, but managed to pass gracefully. However Jiyu’s nose caught a significant wiff of two familiar scents when she was passing over, Leila and Yuki, she knew them very well considering the recentness of their embedding in her head! It had been like maybe a day or two since they faced off against the angel’s (Jiyu still had the bandages underneath her clothing to prove this), and while she had been expecting to see them again soon, she hadn’t exactly been expecting it to be like next day soon!

She was only standing beyond the portal, waiting, for moments before they made their own entrances.

Their interaction started right away, but she was confused as to why Leila seemed to question if it was really her, until she looked down and realized her different style today. In past mission’s? She’d been in Marshals jacket over her bikini top and shorts, or had a dress and cape thrown over the. Leila had never seen her go three sixty on style before, thought she did it every so often, she realized no one had really seen it, because it mostly happened when she was doing something alone. Marshcal, hmm she needed to go do something with him again, lest she leave her savior in the dust. “What?" a smirk played her pink lips and her eyes danced with mischief, her hands falling to hold her hips, making her chest jutt out more, her gaze averted and she laughed softly, bringing her fan over her mouth to hide the expression, the pure white spreading out over her pale creamy complexion. “Oh this~” she spoke it out as if it was a taunt, flicking the neck tie and tucking her fan back into the sleeve it had come from, taking a single swaying step forward towards the dou. “Yesterday’s set was clearly sliced by angels.” her voice trailed off, rolling her eyes at the memory of them, since they had let a demon go, not that she wasn’t happy, it was just funny. “I needed something to wear, it was on top and I am the Ace Of Hearts after-all, it kinda suits.” had she told Leila about her promotion within Black Rose? No of course not, she’d spent the better part of several weeks ignoring the other girl’s communications! Well better late than never, one hand raising to twirl a single low pigtail around it. “Keeps my hair somewhat out of the way of my quiver, I just have no where to put Night Hunt.” so this was likely to be a forever arrangement, sadly, since she needed some way to not have to carry her bow by hand all the time, or she’d get splinters, which could be dangerous considering how weak her physical body was.  

“Oh come on, don’t stare so much, it’s my first time……. wearing something like this.”

Leila would hear her own words slightly changed in the voice of her best friend, before a somewhat lengthy pause the preceded the rest of the statement, explaining that it was her outfit she was talking about with that somewhat flushed face. Yuki was also right for considering Jiyu dangerous, the ‘innocent little wind mage’ had never exactly been to angelic, and had a bad habit of playing with people flirtatiously, since it had got her whatever she wanted when she lived on ships. Most of her dangerous behavior like a small swing of her hips as she turned around, was something she was incapable of helping at this point, since no one had corrected her behavior when it started. “This little orb of light wanted me to come, and I figured I was due for another dose of danger.” the object floated around the wind user and buzzed softly, and she placed her hands on her hip, leaning down slightly as it scolding the other girl, but this sadly would also make her cleavage more attractive considering ti had to hang as she did this. “Your turn~” she chimed it, righting herself as she walked over to Leila, standing with one of her feet only touching the ground by the toes, right in front of her friend, looking up at her. “What are you doing here?” she chuckled it, leaning against a nearby tree when she was done.

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Without any injuries, no reason to be ashamed of her body and such a timid little woman? Jiyu was regaining confidence she’d had before meeting Leila, at a very steady and increasing rate. These days she seldom hid any aspect of her body when avoidable, because she was very aware of her own positive physical attributes once more, alongside the bad one’s like how she was almost dangerously thin especially when her decent sized bust was calculated in! Anyway’s, the woman had been accustomed to using her gender and body to get her way in the past, and it started working like a charm once more when she no longer carried the marks of her two year imprisonment! Thus the half demoness would never really and truly stop her behavior until someone made her see and realize what she was actually doing, even than it was not promised she’d knock it off, maybe just chill in that person’s presence. For now though, she was full steam ahead, and she didn’t even really know what she was doing, sadly, otherwise she’d take much more enjoyment in her actions. Yes, enjoyment, Jiyu adored being in control, and when someone was lusting after you, it was pretty much the ultimate control over them. However she also did not know how dangerous this could become with Leila, just how far her friends mind went, the bondage the golden phoenix desired to perform on her. The final card was on Jiyu thought! Leila adored her friend, and she would lose out if she took such action, Jiyu had an aversion to being tethered by solid binds. After spending two years with her wrists and legs tied together? She was in no hurry to even consensually be tied up, much less have someone jump her that way! Getting pushed like that, would do heavy damage to the still secretly recovering wind user. Marschal couldn’t be competed with when it came to Jiyu, she lusted after her savior heavily, even while she was still in denial over it. However no one was perfect, he had flaws, one’s Jiyu had not see to yet, but that was for later. “Huh?”

An eyebrow quirked, she had seen men have nose bleeds when she did such an action before, mostly old or extremely lustful men. Another girl thought? That was something the curious canine had yet to ever experience, and she didn’t think to connect the dots past trusting Leila, her bare feet scraping against the ground, a hand out reaching as she tried to see what was wrong. Blood, typically meant bad things. “Huh?” the canine really was not following what was going on, nose twitching as the scent of her friends blood burned her nose in two ways, the first being concern the second being the fact she still lusted after blood. “You let her come outside when sick?” Jiyu didn’t look convinced by any of this, Leila smelled fine to her, tail wrapping around one of her own legs, fang scraping her own lip and eyes quizzical as a hand fisted over them. “~Alright.” she didn’t sound entirely convinced, and looked as confused as when it all started, but eh everyone had their things and this didn’t seem like one that would make Leila stop talking to her. Some blood after she had already given the liquid up to the half demoness? Seemed like nothing.

Most of the deadly females in history were fatal because of their looks, opponents too distracted to retain functionality. Actually? That went for both gender’s. Jiyu was not even aware she’d won something, it was kind of funny that way, having victory without even knowing she’d been in makeshift playful combat. “Jerk~.” she puffed it out, eyes widening when Leila made her other comment, something ringing in the back of her mind, alarm bells clanging. Most of the two years she spent held captive by mysterious men whose motives she never knew? Was blurry, but something, a tiny thing in her brain was drawing lines, and her arms crossed defensively over her chest, body slouching to preserve herself. Suddenly? Jiyu looked like a deer headlights, trying to decide to fight the car or flee to late, either way the deer was screwed. “NO!” it was high pitched as she looked down, her body shaking slightly. Shortly afterwards? She shook it all off, but that didn’t change the fact it had happened, this haunted look still in her eyes, those orbs distant as she tried to bring herself back.

“I’m sorry I don’t know why I-” she glanced away and down, puzzled at her own reflex, and the disgusting feeling she had in the pit of her stomach now, the way her skin itched. What could cause her to react like that, when she knew Leila would never actually do it? Kazehime sighed and scratched her head, jaded expression as she refocused on them, smiling small with her pale pink lips. “Eh I figured it wanted to kill me.” she sounded so serious as she shrugged, the action causing her dress to bounce, still twirling one pig tail around her left hand. “That will be useful.” her comment trailed off, as the ball of light smacked into her side, and flew off in a certain direction, trying to lead them somewhere. “Pushy isn’t it?” she commented, starting to follow after their light orb. Leila could be perverted all she wanted, but if her mind was on the money about the monsters here, she would have to protect the dog demoness or irreparable harm might be done to her psyche! Fantasize all she wanted, if Jiyu was forced like that, aware of it fully and able to remember it clearly, she would likely not recover mentally, especially after her last ordeal.

“Let’s go than.”

It was exactly like normal, wandering through the land and dancing little steps, hips swaying and voice humming as they went along, twirling around to glance back every few moments. Eventually though? Her playfulness seemed to vanish for the seriousness witnesses against the angels “Five coming, mixed power.” she spoke up, hand reaching up encase she needed to grab her arrows.

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No one ever liked these sorts of situations and Jiyu didn’t know if she liked being lied to or told the truth no matter what, she hadn’t had enough experience with people to know such things yet. Kazehime did not know what opinions she held about lots of different things, her ambition and instincts being some of the few things on her, as she fought back from the mental damage dealt in the past alongside the scars from before it. However it seemed now she’d get more information cause Leila was pushing Yuki out of the way, coming forward to explain herself, and the little wind user damn well hopped it was a better explanation than had been provided by the other snowy haired girl. What was it with her and picking up people who had silvery hair? Damn. Jiyu tapped her foot slightly as the other girl started speaking, considering each word she spoke out. “Fever?” she still sounded heavily unconvinced, stepping forward, hand out reaching until she changed her mind, thought better of feeling for a literal fever. Sighing out, she placed her hands behind her back, deciding this was done and nothing could be accomplished like this. “You really shouldn’t do that.” but that was the only additional thing that came from the half demoness,slender hand holding her own cheek, eyes telling of how unconvinced she was, but her heart chose to trust it, she should really know better by now, after-all her heart had gotten her into trouble before.

Jiyu did well with several sorts of teasing, she was fairly playful with those she could trust to any extent. However, just something about the idea of someone forcefully removing her clothing, it sent her mind into a blind panic, some defensive mechanism she never knew about having just kicking in. She still looked distracted. Why would she be focused? Kazehime had just snapped at someone she considered precious, and she did not know why, none of it made sense to her! Than again, not many things had made much logical sense ever since she transformed. “That’s really never happened before.” of course no one had so directly suggested forcefully stripping her before, that was new so of course it could bring a new reaction. Jiyu was unsure and confused, she couldn’t deal with her odd actions right now, she just needed to focus on dealing with this sparkly ball of light, the one that always seemed to want her attention so badly!

“I don’t think it was you.”

The words rung and her eyes went hallow, hand rubbing her wrists where her the skin was slightly discolored. Did it have something to do with the time before Marschal saved her from those men? Jiyu sighed out again, laughing slightly as she decided to stop thinking on it. However before she could put the thoughts away, something else crept in. Kazehime had never stopped to think about the state she had been in when he arrived to save her, it had never crossed her mind before today. Now that she was thinking about it? Jiyu recalled burn marks on her actual breasts before her demonic transformation had repaired most of her flesh. Gear’s slowly turned. Finally something clicked in the wind user’s head as she made a mouse like sound and crossed her arms over her chest. “Oh gods, oh fuck.” her face was swiftly turning a nice shade of red as she had her second freak out of the day, legs rubbing against each other slightly as she whimpered. “I didn’t have a shirt on when he saved me, that means, he saw my- fuck.” she was now full fledged blushing, her whole face bright red as her eyes watered slightly and her breathing picked up pace. Marschal had already seen her breasts, damn, sure it was a decent time ago and she was covered in marks, but still, he had seen her! How was she suppose to deal with that? Fuck, she’d never be able to look straight at him again! She had thought her fantasies were bad, this was worse.

“Uh-sorry I just remembered something I really should have recalled months ago.” she should have punched the man for not covering her that night! Of course, he had just saved her from several armed savages, and he was purring for her even as he took off the blindfold, maybe she could forgive one perverted action from him. In consideration? It wasn’t even anything perverted or actiony, it was just an action he had not taken, so it was all good. Right. She wasn’t entirely convinced in her own thoughts, but as her arms fell again, it would have to be enough, her smile returning slightly as she laughed at her own silliness. Marschal didn’t care about seeing her chest, since he’d not commented on it, why should she care that he saw her that exposed!

“Big sis?”

She laughed a little, chasing thoughts away from her mind. Honestly, she had asked her parents for a little sibling before, but it had just never happened. When her mother died? They had been talking about another child, but her mother died,and her father never recovered, so it never happened. Even with how much she hated the man who provided half of her code, she was beginning to wonder why he had not tried to contact her when she had become a notable face in the wizard world, did he hate her now. Sure she often told him she didn’t believe he loved her anymore, but she never truly believed it, his love may have been deep under his grief, but it was still there. Jiyu shook her head, she couldn’t think about those sorts of things right now! It was time to start fighting right now. “There is a problem with that!” the beasts drew near to her as she was announced their enemy, and the second one reached out, she almost fell, stumbling back as she sloppily dodged them, seeming to be drunk or something. One of them lashed out and burned the side of her face, the wind witch fell to her knees, panting and shaking. Considering Leila was afraid too? She tried to fight them for her, but it was no better than when the other girl had lit a torch back when they were stopping tomb raider’s! Kazehime was still just as terrified of fire even if she was half demon now, and she was about to embarrass herself again. The fire spirit lashed out again, and before it’s fist could make contact with her, the wind user fainted, causing confusion among her two opponents that stared down at her unconscious form. Every-time she was prolonged to fire for an extended period of time, this happened, she passed out, her body's desperate attempt to cope with the presence of fire.

Their relation was not in danger, but Jiyu’s life was now in real danger, she was incapable of waking up while their heat still washed over her body. Unless Yuki acted, since Leila could not fight them either, the young wind mage was done for. At least this time, there was no blood for her to smell when she woke up, or at least it was not on an allies body, that had happened before, she’d tried to eat Monkey Boy after the fire user stayed with her when a pheonix caused her to faint. Wasn’t that the sweetest thing? You stay with your trusted ally for hours, waiting for her to come back to the land of awake and she tries to eat you very promptly upon waking.

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It would have been best to keep her head clear and level, but that had been difficult for the past few months. Honestly, it was over rated when someone had things to think about, the only thing Jiyu wanted was to think of nothing, function like she had when she hopped ships! Back then, she’d been calculating, only concerned about her own welfare and desires, able to work hard and play harder. These day’s, that was something that almost never happened, if she worked or played hard she had to rest harder, she couldn’t do the other, only one. Was this a by product of the way she was coming to concern herself with others, or simply something else going on with her, that she had yet to figure out. Now was not the time to think about it, come to consider it thought, how was she even thinking! Kazehime clearly remembered losing her consciousness right in front of an enemy, the terror of knowing she’d likely be burned alive with no way to defend herself. However she was clearly alive if her mind was functioning in this way, pestering her and refusing to leave her alone about anything, she had to be alive. What was the cost this time though, there was always one, the last time it had been biting Magna, nearly turning on her ally and being treated like a literal dog because of this. Come to think of that, she still had to take revenge on him for that! However she was more concerned right now on whatever the cost of her continued life in the face of fire, she needed to wake up to see what had happened. However, Jiyu waking up took several minutes, her brain refusing to cooperate until it was entirely certain no traces of her fear remained around her. Slowly blue-green eyes peered open and squinted at the light above them, her body twitching as her limbs became aware of their placement once more. Upon realizing no one was directly above her, not in her direct sight line, the female shot up in panic, clutching a hand to her chest, afraid she’d been abandoned.

Maybe being abandoned in a safe place would have been better than the sight that greeted her.

“Leila.” she whispered, it going likely unheard, the blood coughed up earlier filling her nose as she turned over, looked down at her shaking friend. What in the world had happened? She moved one hand to touch Liela’s cheek, the eden mage’s words finally reaching her ears, upon hearing this she came to the conclusion one of their enemies must have struck her friend and caused this reaction. “Stay down alright?” she spoke it softly, fingers trailing off where they had been placed as Jiyu forced her body to stand, dark expression on her face, that evil look slowly fading into a smile which may just be more alarming. “So are you guys going to tell me which one of you useless sorry existences did this to her? Or am I going to have to kill every single one of you!” She was going to kill every single one of them anyways, her face stretching into a smile as her hands rose over her ears, trailing down to holding together as her heels kicked, than hovering one over her tail. Shortly after she was done, her demonic traits burst out all at once and her aura spread quickly, causing fear to spread into the attacking group as they had gotten close enough. It did not matter that part of her precious pack was lying right behind her, no that had no calming effect on this, in fact it only amplified the rage coursing through her body. Kazehime bit down on her own lips again, canine’s breaking the flesh on her lower one, causing blood to rivet out her mouth, her tongue swiped out and tasted the blood there, bringing it into her mouth to be swallowed. Even though she did not like doing it, she could take this action. Consuming her own blood did the same thing that swallowing the blood of others did, just to a lesser effect. This time she could not ask her friend for blood, Leila was downed already and she had finally caught sight of Yuki’s hands, even the dragoness had been hurt protecting her, that was not allowed to continue. “Run.” she growled it out, the wolves starting to retreat as the other’s enemies tried to decide what to do. Even if they were running? “I won’t grant you mercy anyway!” the half demoness laughed it out, lifting her arm which caused her wind blades to appear all over the field, slashing into her enemies and bringing a pleased smile to her face. “Rest in agony.” her hand rose, gripping her sleeve, using it to wipe blood from her mouth, so she would not have it dripping down her face when she turned to face Leila again.

“You can stay down if you need to~” her hand reached for a feather tucked into one of her pigtails, tossing it down “Feather.” as she spoke the item expanded beneath Leila and lifted the other girl. While Jiyu would never be able to carry someone on her own? With the use of her mythical little item, she could transport someone without holding them. “Do you need to go home?” the light orb seemed displeased, nudging them forward, as if they were almost there, but Jiyu was more concerned about Leila than following some whim she’d woken up with. If her friend could not continue this adventure, she’d make sure that leila got home safely and than came back later! Finally she looked over at Yuki and her burned hands once more, gaze shifting around slightly. “We should at least find a stream for you to soak those in.” she couldn’t say sorry for that, there was nothing any of them could have done to avoid it, sadly, she was sorry, but the word just wouldn’t do anything here.

“Fuck, do they not know when to quit?!” She glanced over at leila and Yuki, to see if either of them might be good for one last round. While she did not think her friend could be ready too soon?Yuki might be able to help fight the last wave, because this would be the last wave they would face, Jiyu wouldn’t make the two of them stay here any longer.

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Jiyu was trying to help Yuki somehow, the other girl had been hurt protecting her after all. The last thing she’d been expecting? Had been to be snapped at in such a way, hearing the cold girls biting voice and slowly retracing her outstretched hand to in front of her chest. “You.” she was about to tell Yuki she healed remarkably fast, but the dragon like female was not done, and the wind user’s ears twitched with the words, getting ready to defend herself against the fox tailed girl, not realizing Leila was becoming well enough to speak again, and the effect her friends words would have on her fragile mentality. “I”

She was getting sick and tired of losing her own control, it was why she had been hesitant to consume blood, spent months washing her mouth out every time she accidentally cut herself with her own fangs. Frightening those close to her with the changes she underwent when she had even a drop of blood? It was something she never wanted to do, it was why she was so cautious, so frightened of even letting those close to her know she was half demon. Actually Leila had been the last one left in the dark so to speak, but still, Jiyu had even tried to hide it from her own guild. Making people she did not even know tremble, it was an aphrodisiac of the highest addicting quality, a drug she consumed happily without issue. However it was so different when it was someone she held dear who was being affected by her new demonic ways, and she never wanted things that way. Yet, she lost herself in her own instincts and passions so often, and she could never say for sure who she was. Most people had a defined idea of who a woman like her should be, like how Leila saw her as someone who should remain cute and innocent. Yet the wind mage, she had no clue who she was herself! Year’s had been spent running away from home, running from everything, the time she stopped running was in line with her demon blood waking up. Before turning into what she was now, she never had the chance to define who she was, so the girl had no defense over what people thought was her being taken over by her new instincts, at first she had believed she was being overtaken as well. However as time passed, each time she bit into her herself or someone, something else, Jiyu came closer and closer to the conclusion that there was nothing taking her over when she entered that state, it was just her, less controlled than without the sweet tangy metallic taste, but still it was her and there was nothing she could do about that! Kazehime was reluctant to reveal that to anyone; but when leila had made no true comment about her wanting the angels dead, wanting their blood, being something that was so wrong and sinful? She had thought revealing the fact she believed that her demon was who she was, Jiyu had believed it possible even if only  for a day or two, that people could accept her this way. However the eden mage took  away the very hope she had instilled into the young wind user, ripping it away, tearing out Jiyu’s heart and ripping it to shreds just after she had placed a mend on it.

“but instead of running, I think you should rather try to make me not hate you. By changing yourself, you know..."

She did not want to run away anymore, the canine tailed woman had decided that shortly after practicing to perfect her secondary magic, realizing she had a home for once, one not riddled with the pain of her past around every corner! However that was not the part of the statement that hurt her, if was just being told to stop running it would be fine, she knew it was a bad habit she had. The words she heard went too far, they tore into an old wound that had always been left rather fresh by her own brain. A sound emitted like she was going to speak, but she couldn’t, her throat tightened until she felt like she couldn’t breath anymore, each attempt at breath almost sounding like literal wheezing as she looked down, eyes wide in shock. Jiyu had thought Leila accepted her like this, adored even her demonic half, accepted it as part of the deal. It was part of the deal, right? She trembled as she stood there and the other girl pranced off to fight the enemies without even realizing what she had done, small rivers of tears streaking down the side of her downturned face and wetting the ground beneath her. She couldn’t let Leila catch her crying! The girl didn’t deserve to see this much of a rise out of her, the only people who got to see her cry where the one’s who well and truly cared, the last person to see her cry was her mother and then marschal momentarily when he saved her. The tears she shed when the savages who held her would burn her or such, in that darkness? It didn’t count, that was a result of fear, not emotional pain like these tears where.

“Impossible.”

She couldn’t be accepted in this state, no matter how much she had hopped for it, that was just porven. While some of her guildmates, her family, while they may accept this shift passively, other’s could not greet it with anything besides hatred. Feeling nothing was better than hatred and being hated. Her slightly covered hands rose to grip her own arms as the fight raged, she didn’t even really notice Leila’s change, the tears being forced to dry as she went number. “I can’t.” she couldn’t just leave everything to her ‘big sister’ that was never going to happen, not again! Jiyu turned away from the duo of girls, people she trusted with her life seconds again. The light orb swirled around her and she followed it, not caring where it was leading her, so long as it was away. Kazehime followed it back towards the portal, since none of the required beasts had been fought, there was no reason to stay. Leila hated her, the other girl had said it, out loud, almost directly. Jiyu thought she would be happy if someone told her the fact they hated her directly, after-all she believed her parents hated the fact she was only half demon and only half human, what else would they keep it from her all these years! However instead of relief and the ability to just move on, it dug a razor sharp knife deeply into her heart, and no matter how she reached, Jiyu was incapable of removing the blade. The wind user was quick to move, and exited the world, heading back from the portals towards Rose Garden, towards a place that at least didn’t hate her. Lacrima lit up her small steps as she walked through the city, looking around with this ghostly expression on her face, light casting down onto her pale flesh and making her appear as if she could be a ghost walking through the street’s, tail hanging limply behind her, hair swaying without sign of life. “Huh.” she looked over at a tavern, biting her bottom lip again. When her father was drinking? He didn’t seem like he wanted to dig a knife into himself, nothing seemed to bother him but the booze itself! Maybe she could find the same thing in whiskey that he did, she swore she hated him for it, would never do it; Yet there she was standing there, looking up at the sign for the place, not moving, just staring, she was thinking about it, and it killed her even more inside.

Wc Achieved.

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She had never felt like this before, the utter hopelessness filling her body and drowning out the voice of her hearts desire to have any form of hope. Even though she was standing right here alive? The woman felt like she was transparent, see through and invisible! Standing right here felt like she was already dead, believed that someone had deemed her unworthy to live and dug a dagger right into her vulnerable chest, straight through her heart. Wait! Jiyu recalled that was exactly what had happened. She had given someone a huge piece of her heart, exposed her affection to them , laid herself bare of all defenses. This time? She'd made a mistake! The numbing pain spreading through her body said it clearly, she'd made one of the biggest mistakes of her life. “How did it come to this?” A common question outside such an establishment, with its painfully neurotic flashing lights and sharp scents. Yet? Jiyu could not find an answer, sure she knew why, but the female did not want to admit how badly she'd fucked up! Kazehime had been happy in the belief that the hate which had killed her mother did not touch her, she couldn't have been more wrong and it hurt as badly as any literal wound could agonize her! “Fuck.” She eventually walked into the bar when she caught that melon thick scent in town. If Leila was trying to take it back now? Well there was no taking it back, especially not so soon! “Your strongest whiskey please.” No one would expect to find her in here, she hated alcohol, mostly everyone who knew her also came to figure out she did not drink! Maybe she could make an exception tonight though? Would it make her a horrible hypocrite, destroy her sense of self, change her identity, if she gave up just once and followed in her father's steps. The most important question though, as the wide rim glass was set in front of her, that essential core question? Was if she was willing to betray herself this far, sink down into the bottles comfort for a pain close to the one that had chased him down into the bottom! “Thank you.” She set down jewel to pay for the drink, even though she had not taken a single sip. In the end? She could not do it, Jiyu could not pick up the glass and take away her own pain, she could not become like him, no after the things she said when she ran away all those years ago! Being numb, feeling dead and hollow, it was better than stabbing herself in the back. Kazehime stumbled out of the bar almost as if she'd actually had some of her drink, ears dropped down and tail sagged. Even if she had given into temptation? Jiyu knew the consolation provided would be fake, she'd feel worse when she sobered up. A wound like this only was affected by time, nothing she did would take away the pain.

Only as she walked towards the silver moon, she didn't even feel the pain anymore. The only thing that Jiyu felt right now? Was nothing, her emotions shutting down as her bodies only form of defense against the searing pain. Every trace of life had vanished from soulless eyes as she pushed open her rooms door, picking up the mewling kitsune within, staring with stoic icy expression. “I'm home~” but it didn't even sound like she was there, static behind her voice. Even if someone did not know her? There was clearly something wrong with the woman, some damage so severe she'd suddenly become a husk to deal with it.