God of Nothing [Private]

Sayuno Yato

”A hero like you shouldn’t drink so much,” Yuno’s hand gently wrapped around the bottle, pulled it away from his grip and placed it onto the ground. ”You never know when the Magic Council will call you in, you shouldn’t be drunk like this,” strangely enough Yuno could not feel the effects of the alcohol just yet, albeit having drunk a lot as well. She was very used to alcohol, but not immune to its side effects. It would be quite a shame if she was anyways, so the concern she expressed for Deniel was genuine. He told her a little more about himself, his aspirations and Yuno had to admit to herself that she was quite envious of his accomplishments. Unlike her, he didn’t seem naive in spite of his apparently young age, he had been through alot and he still made the right decisions. ”I respect that. You’re whole existence is.. it’s quite..” she struggled for a moment, trying to find the right words to describe how she saw him but only shook her head when she realized there were none. ”The scar on your chest makes me think you shouldn’t be alive, but here you are.”

Of course his family business was none of hers, but Yuno couldn’t help but wonder what they were like. His parents. Those thoughts, however, were quickly brushed away when he - very much to her surprise - agreed on staying with her and he immediately came forward with a long lasting and very loving kiss to which Yuno responded by returning it. It was the question that followed that caught her off-guard and she immediately shoved him away and climbed away to sit on the other end of the couch. The young woman sighed heavily before brushing back her hair, adjusting her clothes and crossing her legs. She had to lie. Telling the truth wasn’t an option, no matter how sweet his kisses and how playful his tongue was.

”I am..from a small village, somewhere around the border of Fiore. It’s a place not worth mentioning, far away from here. It’s nothing you should bother yourself with.” Her voice seemed cold at first, but she looked at him while she spoke. Yuno was an excellent liar - he wouldn’t be able to figure out the truth. ”My demons came to me in my dreams. It’s nothing I enjoy talking about, but they are here now and I will live with it. I share every moment I experience with them, so you best be careful with what you say.” A bold thing to say to the God of Ishval, but Yuno only smirked at the man before leaning herself back against the backrest of the couch. She closed her eyes so she wouldn’t have to look at him. ”Where are you from, Deniel?”

Sayuno Yato

Little was known about Bellum, at least to Sayuno. None of what he said would have mattered either, a few days ago, but the circumstances surrounding the white-haired sorceress and the Nephalem had somewhat changed. Sayuno had grown fond of the man. Not too much--that would be ridiculous, right?--but enough for him to make her listen up when he called her out. She immediately felt bad, a sickening feeling spread through her stomach and she sat up, but looked away. It wasn’t a lie told out of spite, but rather she had told it out of fear. Sayuno was a woman with many secrets and none of them were ready to be unveiled in front of Deniel. She wasn’t going to tell him that, however, because it would make him seem more special to her than he really was. ”Please..don’t..” she begged him, but politely listened to him speak anyways. She was in no position to tell him to be quiet after all.

Deniel created a visual aid and told her the story of his life. Sayuno had never thought about it up until now, and while she could have guessed that it was going to be sad and bitter this wasn’t what she’d expected. Humans were cruel creatures. The most cruel ones to ever walk the earth and yet everyone demonized her kind, his kind, anything that practically wasn’t human - the irony of life and fate. Deniel was a different person, and proven to be less naive than Sayuno had been, and yet the man had still suffered the same consequences. Worse consequences even and it saddened the young sorceress. The two of them both had suffered under humanity’s cruelty, their lies, their selfishness and their hatred. It was almost unbearable for her to watch, not only because he had been through the worst times as a child, but because she once believed in humans and craved to be one of them, so badly that her wish had actually been fulfilled.

And now she hated everything. Herself and the world she lived in.

As a demon, Sayuno still had more heart and love for other creatures than humans ever could. ”I didn’t know,” a weak whisper barely made it past her lips before tears started welling up in the girl’s eyes. Big, round droplets rolled down her cheeks and dropped onto her thighs. Sayuno wasn’t a pretty crier, so she hid her face behind her hands for a moment and took a few deep breaths before standing up and walking over to Deniel. She did not bother to wipe away her tears, new ones were still coming out, and so she hugged the man and gently pressed her body against his. ”I shouldn’t have lied to you. But I cannot bring myself to tell you the truth either. All I can say is that you didn’t deserve any of this. Any of what has happened to you, you didn’t deserve it. You know that, right?” She had to make sure he did. She had to make sure he wasn’t going to make the same mistakes she had and with her arms wrapped around his body the girl looked up to him before pressing her cheek against his chest again.

”It should have never happened to you. If I could undo it, I would. But this planet were live on we have to share with humans, there is no way around it. You’re strong enough now, Deniel, it won’t happen to you again. You won’t let it happen to you again..right?” There was nothing else she could do for him other than to hug him and cry the tears he probably wouldn’t cry himself. Sayuno had lost all her power because she had fallen in love with the human race, for whatever stupid reason, and that love had taken everything from her. Deniel wasn’t human, though. Maybe he would understand her. And maybe, hopefully, he would never hurt her like they had.

Sayuno Yato

Deniel’s reaction was sobering to say the least. He hardly cared, if at all and even her tears left him unimpressed. Sayuno wasn’t sure how to react, but when he wrapped his arms around her she could feel that it was out of pity. It was strange that his own past saddened her more than it saddened him and it seemed that, in spite of his young age, Deniel had already gotten over everything. ”I wonder if you’ve always been this cold or if those events have turned you into this. I’m not quite sure what to do with you..” She heaved a sigh and shook her head. He forced her to take her face off his chest then, moved away and she looked up to him, unsure of what to do. He went in for a kiss but Sayuno turned her face away and his lips met her cheek instead.

”I guess there isn’t much to say about this,” she freed herself from him and walked over to the bed, wordlessly dropping her clothes to the ground before climbing into the sheets. Needless to say, the woman wasn’t in the mood for anything sensual now, but she still hoped he would join her. ”I appreciate your honesty with me. I didn’t expect you to tell me much about yourself and of course you didn’t have to. I have no rights to know anything about you and that is fine, however you need to remember that it is the same for you. You have no right to know anything about me and if I choose not to tell you where I’m from you’re going to have to accept that. I don’t care if you make me sound like a liar, you can keep those thoughts to yourself. And if you’re trying to make me feel bad for lying to you while you are being oh so open with me I’d like to tell you that you failed. I’m not going to feel bad for something like that” Truth be told, that was all she really had to say to this topic. She curled up on the left side of the bed, leaving the right free for him if he wanted to join her.

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Deniel laid himself down beside her and Sayuno, who was truly surprised, was a little reluctant at first but came closer to him to plant a soft kiss on his cheek while wishing him a good night as well. ”Sweet dreams, Deniel.” After that she would leave him alone. Back on her side of the bed the woman made sure not to bother the man or invade his personal space. The consequences of their little fight required them to spend the night without outliving the intimacy they both had so grown used to and Sayuno, who couldn’t sleep, stayed up for much longer than him to think about many things. One hour passed, then another one and the girl was finally dozing off. She had been trying to cure her restlessness by moving around a little, getting comfortable and even nestling up to Deniel’s back. With her body close to his she could finally sleep.

But it wasn’t going to be for very long, because after not even another hour had passed the sorceress felt something small and claw-like poke her cheek. If it wasn’t for the deep voice that came with it and was very uncommon for reptiles she wouldn’t have moved as drastically as she did. Sayuno’s reaction was clear, and without hesitation her arm, already morphed into that of a demon’s, darted out and towards the creature and wrapped its long fingers around it’s slender body. Sayuno’s eyes remained closed until she found something within her hand and slowly turned around on her back while lifting the creature above her head. Momentarily the girl’s eyes wandered over to Deniel but the man hadn’t moved an inch and was still sleeping. She now took the time to take a glance and whatever she was holding. A serpent-like creature, black and 'bout the size of Deniel’s cock. Sayuno arched a brow and sat up in her bed. Without a word the girl grew herself a pair of gigantic wings and with the creature still in her possession she flew straight out of the roof hatch a few meters away onto another house's’ roof, where she wouldn’t disturb Deniel’s sleep. Sayuno sat down cross legged and carefully put the ‘thing’ into her lap. She eyed it for a few more seconds, obviously trying to figure out what it was, and once it doomed on her the girl’s eyes widened and a smile spread across her face.

”It’s a fucking fairy!”

Sayuno Yato

“Oh,” the girl immediately let go of the little creature and gently massaged its neck a little, so it could breathe again. “I’m sorry,” she said, but there was no guilt evident on her face. “Are you okay?” Upon further inspection the little creature didn’t seem to be all too fairy like - much to Sayuno’s disappointment. She sighed and looked over the housetops of Talonia Most people were asleep at this time of the day, so they could talk without being interrupted. Before she could say anything else the little thing already had begun protesting and she gasped before breaking out in laughter. Was this a dream or something? Did Deniel really have a mini dragon? “You’re really cute for a dragon. And really small.” She said and poked Nidhogg in the belly. “It’s a pleasure to meet you, Nid-chan. My name is Sayuno.” She wasn’t really a modest person so without asking she turned the little creature on its back and started rubbing its belly. “You are really cute,” she said again, “But very small. I guess someone as strong as Deniel doesn’t really need a partner who is powerful anyways.”

She wondered what he meant by saying that he was his “weapon of choice”, or sometimes his “pet” - couldn’t he be either one or the other - not both of them at the same time? He asked how things were going with Deniel and for a moment Sayuno pondered how to tell a cute, innocent little baby dragon how she was feeling around his master. “Well...you see… I don’t know if you know but..” She lowered her head and moved her lips closer to the creature’s ear. “..Deniel has another dragon. In his pants. It’s about your size, but quite pale. And thicker, much thicker. Thank god!” She giggled and almost rolled herself across the roof. “Sometimes I get to play with his dragon, and when we do that everything’s alright. Everything’s perfect actually. But outside of that we are sometimes not getting along.. But it’s not all the time. He has shown signs of wanting to take care of me, and I surely have shown signs of wanting to be with him...we are both just a little awkward and very different from each other.” She couldn’t even explain why she wanted to be with him. She just wanted to. “I don’t really know what to do when he is angry with me.”

Sayuno Yato

The tiny dragon was a wise one. Nidhogg was small, but something about his voice and his eyes made her believe that he was much more than it seemed. Perhaps the black creature had something like a ‘true’ form, something that was completely different from what she was seeing right now and she decided to respect him a little more. ”I understand, and I’m sorry for insulting you. I didn’t mean to be disrespectful,” still scantily-clad in her white nightgown, a cool breeze swept over the roofs and the girl’s body shivered under it. It was a good feeling nonetheless and she was glad to get some fresh air. Nidhogg’s comment made her assume that he knew what was going on between her and his master and it honestly surprised her a little. She had never noticed his presence before - not that it was outstanding anyways - but it seemed that he was watching over Deniel.

When Nidhogg explained his master’s qualities to her the girl smiled a little and closed her eyes. She was lying on her back now and the back of her hand rested upon her eyes. ”He seems so hard to love...but at the same time so desirable..” Deniel was difficult at first glance, but the more she thought about it she found his behavior actually quite normal for his case. ”I understand, I think. He needs someone strong to be with him. If I can’t even survive the pain he will cause me, how am I going to survive what’s and who’s coming at me because I’m with him?” It will be little compared to everything he had been through and everything she would go through. ”He is the only one I know who is like me. And the only other person I know. I haven’t had contact to humans in a very long time. I don’t trust humans anymore, but he is not one of them. How am I ever going to find a person like him again? Perhaps that is why I want to be with him more than I thought I would.” She shrugged and turned around so she could look at the little dragon.


Suddenly, Sayuno sat up and looked at Nidhogg. ”You know, that helped. I will make you something delicious to eat the next time we meet. And besides.. I should go back in.” She missed him already. Sayuno quickly jumped onto her feet and kneeled down in front of the dragon. She gently nudged his paw with the tip of her index-finger as if to shake it before flying back to her own house and through the roof.  

Sayuno Yato

Deniel wasn’t in the bed anymore. Sayuno’s heart skipped a beat when she noticed the open door, but it calmed down almost immediately after hearing a noise coming from downstairs. He returned to their bedroom and his expression showed that he was just as surprised to see her like that as she was to see him coming back from wherever he had been. It seemed as if he had been looking for her and his warm smile didn’t went unnoticed. ”Deniel.” Her wings dissolved into a thousand tiny magical particles and she ran across the room and straight into his arms. Standing on her tiptoes now, Sayuno wrapped her arms gently around his neck and pressed her lips against his. A smile like that could only mean one thing, he wasn’t angry at her and she surely wouldn’t be angry with him. After about a minute she broke the kiss and gasped for air. ”I’m sorry,” she spoke softly and ran her fingers through his hair. ”I didn’t mean to be harsh to you, nor did I want to leave you here. I had a...strange dream and needed some fresh air.”

She noticed that he was still wearing his outside-clothes and sighed in response to that. ”I woke you up, didn’t I? Either way, you should never wear your outside-clothes to sleep.” She got rid of whatever the man was wearing that didn’t belong there according to her and laid herself back down with him. According to the clock on her nightstand it was still in the middle of the night and the two of them needed to rest. Sayuno pulled on the string hanging down from the roof and closed the hatch, but not completely so air could still get inside. This time she made sure to face him and be close to him. Sayuno placed her hand on his cheek and pinched him tenderly. ”Where you looking for me?” The mere thought made her snicker. Her lips found home on his once again and this time she didn’t plan on parting them very soon.

Sayuno Yato

”Mhmm,” Sayuno wiggled across the bed and pulled the blanket over her body. ”Nyaa...what?” Deniel’s body should have been right underneath hers - but he wasn’t. Sayuno’s eyes immediately shot open and the girl sat straight up in her bed only to find him sitting right next to her. Her hair was slightly curly now, somewhat messy and she looked rather tired. He was already fully dressed and for a moment she couldn’t believe that it was going to be over already. She slouched her shoulders and pulled the blanket up once again to cover her bare chest. ”W-what?” The Council called him in? She looked at him with disbelief in her eyes before realizing what situation they were in. ”I mean, of course! Of course! You have to go, I’m sorry.” How long had it been? 2 days, perhaps? It felt like he had been with her forever and the girl had gotten used to sharing her bed with him. Of course it wasn’t always going to be like that. Silly Yuno.

She moved over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck. She nudged him and placed her lips on his for a kiss. ”I can’t wait to see you again,” she whispered and rested her head on his shoulder. ”Well...now that you know where I  live it shouldn’t be that hard. But I will wish you good luck anyways, because I won’t make it easy on you.” She climbed out of the bed and lead him to the door. A sigh escaped her lips and she gently squeezed his hands. ”Take care of yourself, will you?” She knew he would, he had survived until this day somehow after all. She waved him farewell and quickly closed the door behind herself. Him leaving wasn’t something she wanted to see.