Allen could hear nothing. No words were able to crack the ice protecting him. It's like his instincts took over, it was about time he relied on these instincts. He could take no chances, no risks. He can't feel the joy of life, laughter, fun, curiosity,
love. Allen wanted to
live, not just
survive. But after craving such vast feelings, a monster came by to grimly remind him that he was just a tool. Unable to anything other then fulfill it's duties. Not able to do what it wants to do, not able to say what it wants to say. He was
alone. He wasn't even a normal human, so how could he expect to do what humans want to do? How could he feel what humans feel? No one would care if he were gone, no one would miss him. He couldn't live each day to the fullest because of his meaning of living.
But. If someone tried to reach out to him, he pushed them away. He didn't want to hurt anyone. Was he suppose to hurt anyone? Was that his purpose? It was sickening to know that he didn't hesitate to harm another, to not hold back. He was horrible. Murderer. Psychotic freak. A scientist's experiment gone
wrong. So many thoughts crept into his mind one by one. They were like a storm, coming without warning. Throwing the keys down a deep and dark void, the keys that locked his several chains. It was pointless, no one could ever find the keys anymore. They were gone. These chains are growing by the day. The ice around his heart grew thicker, but was beginning to
thaw when he met Kihia, Allison, Alyia, and everyone else. They went through such trouble just to break these chains that held Allen. But it was useless, the feeling to
protect them, only grew more chains on him.
Before Allen knew it, he stopped moving. Tears rolling down his cheeks, making his eyes glisten. The feeling of Kihia's hand on his elbow calmed him down. He put his fist down, and spoke in a gentle, trembling voice.
"Maybe.. I should've went with Stein.." A long pause came about the group of people before Allen spoke again. He smiled, but his eyes full of despair and sadness.
"I'm a artificial human. I'm a tool. A tool used for slaughter. I'm a experiment gone wrong. I can't break these chains that hold me.. I have this strange desire to protect you.. Nii-san. But craving such a feeling will only get you involved in things that you shouldn't be involved in." He started to lean down on his knees, almost to the ground, as tears began to fall to his chin and drip to the ground,
"To be honest, I want to be like everyone else. To experience all of the emotions ordinary people have. I want to inhale this world's corrupted air and embrace it. I want find my own dream. I want care about people. I want to protect Nii-san. I want to help others.." His voice became louder and louder, more tears dripping to the ground.
His voice was loud but calm all the same,
"I don't know my purpose in life, but I'm just some experiment from Stein's lab. Dead weight awaiting revival of him. I can't resist it for very much longer. Sooner or later I shall return to Stein, and be used to his pleasure. I don't have a choice. I don't have a life, but if I did.. I'd stay with you, Nii-san.." He covered his eyes trying to hide the tears, he bit his lip letting all of the frustration run wild.
"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry that we ever met.. I'm sorry I had the desire to protect you all.. I'm sorry.. So very much."
OOC: Long Post.