Hidden Insanity

Blood. Screams. Massacres. Agony. Terror...

Victoria let the delicate white flower slip between her long pale fingers. It fell on the old, stone tomb without a sound and stood there, its petals slightly moving with the wind. Black lightnings crackled around the body of the God Slayer while she watched the tomb with a sad face. She knew she was doing herself no good by staying there, that this Tombstone held a curse, a curse invisible to the world, but that bought old, horrendous memories to Victoria, and that was capable of sending her to the edge of insanity. She huffed, and looked up, then took her left hand up and passed it through her scarlet red hair. She noticed a crow flying a few feet above her head. She rose her hand and made it a sign to go away, but the damn bird continued flying above her head. She tried to scare it off during a few more minutes until she finally noticed that there was no way to scare the bird away, and the only way to get rid of it was to kill the bird with a high-voltage God Slayer Lightning. She rose her hand and covered it with black lightnings, then aimed at the crow and...

Agony. Hatred. Superiority. Torture. Egoism. Cruelty...

She took her hand down and fell to the ground on her knees. She pulled her hands over her face and inhaled deeply. It was happening again. She was losing her mind once again. She took a deep breath and tried to calm herself down, to reinforce the seal which she had put on her insanity. But even she wasn't as stupid to think that she would remain sane.
She had it enough clear that, in the moment in which she joined a guild and began using her powers too much, she'd make her insanity return. Yet again, she did it. She joined a guild, and, for a tiny peace of time managed to forget about this insanity.


Victoria got up and walked to the shadows, hiding from the crow. She managed to hide in the shadows, and the crow began looking around confused, uncertain where his objective had went to. After a few minutes, it went away, seemingly far away, and didn't return again. Victoria sighed and began moving towards the exit of the cementery, silent. She was uncomfortable there and wished she could just go away, return to her house and forget any of this had happened. She'd have a hot coffee and would read a book peacefully, then she would go to sleep and, on the next day, she'd go to the guild.


A sudden pain in the chest threw Victoria on the ground. It was agonizing, as if something wanted to break out of her chest, to escape. She tried to get up by putting her hands as supports, but the pain was too unbearable for her. She fell on the ground and tried to stabilize her breathing, to make it get back to normal. Progressively, her breathing returned to its normal state, but the pain didn't cease. Victoria's breathing continued stabilized, but she needed something to stop this pain. It was worse than the pain and nausea she felt while on a vehicle. She dragged herself towards a shadowy area and consumed part of the shadows there, however, she didn't recover or feel any better. She just remained laying on the ground, breathing hard. Her vision began turning blurry, until she finally lost consciousness.

Thunders. Lessons. Betrayal. Happiness. Betrayal. Insanity.

Yukine decided to revisit the cursed lands as this is where he last saw Victoria (strangely enough) who had a deep discussion with him about why she wanted to leave Sabertooth. Alas, there was an eternal ounce of misery that always existed in Yukine since then. He had become emotionless, fearless, and a lot more ambitious ever since he heard that bad news. He missed Victoria a lot, and still loved her the exact same way. Additionally, all of his friends were gone, which made him more than depressed. Viola, who Yukine had first become friends with after Victoria had disappeared. She was always the innocent, selfless sweetheart of the group, who always satisfied others, and cared for them deeply. Then there was Indar, who always seemed to change as days passed, though he was a quite a reasonable man, and a good friend. Finally, there was Zenneth, a person comparable to a brother. Zenneth had taught Yukine how to act in his most important moments, and learn both the good and bad from society. Overall, Yukine couldn't thank his friends enough. However, during this time, they didn't matter; only Victoria.

Yukine wandered through a place nearby in accordance to where he and Victoria last met. His inner self was revealed once more as he saw Victoria in her pain and agony. However, how could she be so hurt if no one was around her. Was it mental illness that was involved. After further consideration, Yukine presumptuously confirmed that Victoria was being impacted mentally. Tears streamed down his face, just like last time, as Yukine noticed Victoria drop in misery. "Hang in there, Victoria!" Yukine shouted, "I'm here for you, just tell me what's wrong. Take my hand if you need to!" Yukine was prepared to use his ancient lineage to support Victoria. Unfortunately, he had no idea what was happening. It seemed to be Victoria all by herself, who moved madly around the cemetery while on the ground. Even the Regalia felt sympathetic, and so they decided to cut in. Not only that, but Yukine had his dog with him: Anita. Anita could send Yukine to the world of his own Regalia, though the host was willing to accept more than one person, this time.

"I'm here for you, Victoria. Don't you ever forget it." Yukine promised in a soft tone, his hand still reached out towards Victoria, "Just tell me what you need." Yukine smiled warmly after the tears disappeared from his face. As he was originally dressed in a green hoodie, Yukine decided to take it off, and place it over Victoria as a blanket. He sat there, and awaited the best response he could hear currently from Victoria.

Victoria regained consciousness after what seemed an eternity. She opened her eyes, with a start, and looked around. Her vision was red and blurry, but it began clearing after a few seconds until she was finally able to see around clearly. Someone was near her, she noticed that with a start. She got up slightly and traveled her eyes around the cementary. She felt strange. As if she had been awakened from a years-long dream. She rubbed her head and then noticed a strange feeling in her heart. A feeling she could never mistake.

Hatred. Will of Vengance.

Yukine was looking at her with a worried face. Suddenly, all of the latest things that happened came back into her mind like a hurricane of memories. She had left Sabertooth because she was going insane. Ehem. She was insane now, she understood. The feeling of being awakened was because her insanity was awakened. She had taken a decision that involved Yukine, a decision, more of a promise, that she had to fulfill without doubting the slightest. She got on her feet and cleaned her clothes from the dust and earth that they had gathered from when she fell. The black lightnings around her body were more than ever, meaning that she really was awakened. She fixed her scarlet red hair and waited for Yukine to get up before she took a deep breath and managed to pull a neutral mask over her face. She looked at Yukine, straight at the eyes, and talked with a calm, cold yet soft voice.
'' Yukine. We must talk. Now.'' She said. The authority in her voice indicated that whoever disobeyed her wasn't going to survive the night, no matter who it was.
She waited a few seconds before she began talking. Her usually cheerful face when she was with Yukine was hiding a now wounded face, a face that tried to block all emotions, a face that tried to be merciless. She inhaled deeply and let the air slid out of her mouth softly, before she began talking.
'' We need to break up.'' She said. Once she had pronounced those horrible words, this phrase, she felt immediately her heart, even though now different from before, shatter. '' Sincerely, thank you for your time and dedication. And thank you mostly for your love. Alas... it is necessary. Don't think you are the one to blame. It's me. I've made you go through enough. I've made you suffer too much. Considering my now permanent state, I'll make you suffer even more. You need to find a good, gorgeous woman from a legal guild who loves you as much as you love her. A girl who won't make you suffer. You need to form a family with her, be the best ReQuip Mage in Fiore. You need to be happy. What you don't need is an insane, cruel God Slayer that spends her time in a cementery or in haunted places and would kill anyone without caring who it is, if he has a family or not, or if he is important for someone or not.'' She inhaled. '' I am sorry. It's the better for you this way.''
That said, she turned on her heels and began walking out of the cementery. Then, she remembered somethings. '' Farewell, Yukine. I wish you only happiness.''
After that sentence was finished, the God Slayer dissapeared in the shadows and went on her merry way, trying to avoid looking back. Because if she did that, she was sure she'd see more people she cared about suffering. And she certainly didn't need that. What she did need was to seal her heart, and not her insanity. Block love out of her heart and don't let it return. Never.

Why?

Love is a Dangerous Angel.

The pupils in Yukine's eyes shrunk as Victoria stood up to face him, as if all of that pain had gone away instantaneously. Not only that, but he was frightened when Victoria chose to put a mask over her face, and talked with more aggression. Was this a representation of a new person? Yukine looked at the woman curiously and seriously- for the first time, no emotion expressed on his face. He could tell something was different about Victoria as she could've easily noticed his hand, or the sweater that was on her back, but now the hoodie was on the ground, dirt scattered all over it.

Yukine's eyes lost their soul once Victoria said the worst four words to him that he could possibly hear, let alone the fifth word that made it imperative. Tears streamed down his face and Yukine's eyes were now bloodshot. He nodded slowly to indicate that he would break up with Victoria if she wanted to. The anger in himself grew dramatically as Victoria treated their time together as though it was nothing. Not just that, but she also made it seem as though Yukine put all the effort into the relationship the two once had. He really felt like shedding hate during this time, though his Regalia halted him. The lady was scrambling words together that made absolutely no sense. Since when was fun suffering. Since when was having a good time hurtful? None of this was relevant to his broken relationship with Victoria. Another feeling struck him when Victoria specified that Yukine should find someone from a legal guild. So she was going to a dark guild, huh? Yukine was so confused now, he couldn't understand anything anymore. His emotions were overwhelmed, and were in the process of fading away. Finally, she basically explained how she would kill anyone. With these words spoken, solely, Yukine no longer wanted to see the woman anymore. At least six seconds had passed already, and Yukine wasn't the same person he used to be; all due to a single event. It was almost as if he had been transformed. His emotions had disappeared, and his surreal capacity of intelligence had increased drastically, in its place. He wouldn't love her anymore, even if she overcame herself and tried. Yukine left the cemetery simultaneously to when Victoria left. He transported that dusty green hoodie into his pocket dimension, his tears vanished, his face pure, and the thought of Victoria in his mind out. Yukine indeed thought there were better things to do than be with Victoria now. Only his Regalia understood him now, and Sabertooth would definitely gain a new impression when Yukine would visit again, sometime.

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