by Nessa Cordelia Lux 8th July 2018, 6:47 am
Entry 7 - 8:45pm Thursday.
Dear Diary,
Today's been a bit weird.
It's the anniversary of the Apple picking, the day mum and I would always go to pick apples then come back and make lots of apple based dishes. Only that was over five years ago, and once again this year it's been kind of tough for me. I think it's because it's something that she and I used to cherish together. It the only explanation for why I ache so much on this day...
But this year, this year was different.
Because why I was sat in the wood, reminiscing about the past. I got interrupted.
There was this guy there, this guy from my guild. His name was Marcus.
First of all, he found me crying which was so embarrassing, I hate it when people see me cry. It's so uncomfortable. So you know what I did, wiped my face, and pretended like it wasn't a big deal. Even though it is, a big deal, the biggest.
We kind of ended up going for a walk, he was nice enough not to press the matter, which I appreciated. Oh, and we found the most beautiful spot. There was this little clearing and in it a waterfall. Such a lovely sight.
And of course, me being the clumsy moron that I am, well I fell in it.
So embarrassing, and Markus, he did this weird magic and he caught me. Sort of. My bottom half was really wet, but still, it's the thought that counts right. Not that it mattered, but I'll get to that in a minute.
Anyway, we carried on chatting and I don't know, I liked talking to Markus but I feel like he's really hard to read. Like he doesn't seem especially friendly, and he's one of those people that doesn't show hardly any emotion. But I feel like he's a nice guy, deep down. Although something tells me he doesn't think so, I could be wrong though.
Anyway, me being the awkward gal I am, decided to perk him up a bit by splashing him. So awkward Ness. But it kinda worked, he did some magic and suddenly there were loads of him. They splashed the hell out of me, which was really funny...except for the fact I was wearing a white top and bra. The top went see-through and he basically saw me topless.
Like seriously, could I be any more awkward. Although a bra isn't much different than a bikini top, so if I think about it like that it's not so bad. He didn't see under the bar obviously. Plus he was topless too so it was kind of fair. Not in a weird way though like guy and girl, he just took his top of cause I got him wet when I splashed him.
It wasn't a bad view though...
OH MY GOD DID I ACTUALLY JUST WRITE THAT.
Good thing, no one gets to read you but me. If my Aunty found this she'd practically drag me to the guild to see him in person. You're just my little book of private thoughts.
Speaking of private, I thought about Rex today, when Markus was topless and that. It was weird, I haven't thought about him in at least a month. I guess the whole showing of skin gave me a flashback of sorts. Although this time was a lot less scary …
Let's not go into that though. I stopped crying, don't wanna set them off again.
Back to Markus, I used Starlight to dry myself and we chatted a little more. We got onto the topic of death, weird that, considering my last entry. I admitted to Markus that I know I may one day end up killing someone (evil of course) and I'd come to terms with that. Then he admitted to me that he HAD killed someone, when he was fourteen. I don't think it was for selfish reasons though, something about Markus makes me want to trust him.
Anyway, after that I'm not sure what I said but I think it got a bit much for him, cause he vanished. Like without a goodbye, I felt a little down about it earlier but now I'm home I think I get it. He was kinda socially awkward after all, and I've been told how intense I can be. We're bound to see each other again, we're in the same guild after all.
I just wonder what it's gonna be like next time.
I will say this though, thanks to him, he really pulled me outta my slump today, and for that I'm so grateful.
Last edited by Nessa Cordelia Lux on 25th July 2018, 2:51 am; edited 1 time in total