Vhesira adjusted the bag hanging over her shoulder absentmindedly, glancing around as she slowly put one foot in front of the other. She could swear she'd been walking more and more slowly the closer she got to her destination. This was a bad idea, wasn't it? She shouldn't be doing this. There was no way she was going to be accepted! Her pace faltered, before she forced herself to continue forward. No... she couldn't think like that... she had to push on, and stop putting herself down like this. She took a deep breath, and picked up her pace.
If she kept shrinking away from taking chances like this with people, she'd never get anywhere! No, she could do this! To do what she wanted to do in life, she had to join a guild. And of all the guilds she knew of, Crystal Swan seemed to be the one that suited her best. Her nerves started to creep up again, her grip on her bag tightening. "Geeze, girl, pull yourself together..." She shook her head in annoyance. Why did she have to have these second thoughts and doubts? Why did she always have to assume people would reject her outright?
As she rounded a corner, her destination finally came into view. The Crystal Swan Guild Hall. One foot in front of the other.... just a bit further. "It'll be just like the story... the ugly duckling grows up to be a beautiful swan, right?" Vhesira took another deep, shaky breath... and... froze. She was a good 100 feet from the front door, her heart hammering in her chest. She was usually more confident than this, but when it came to putting herself out there and asking people to accept her... it was out of her element.
"Come on.... come on, Vhesira... dammit, you can't come all this way just to chicken out now...." She grit her teeth, squeezing her eyes shut as she willed her body to take one more step forward... except it didn't come. She was effectively paralyzed, trapped in an endless loop of self-encouragement and self-deprecation, with nothing to break the stalemate. Vhesira's eyes began to water, but the tears didn't fall yet, even as she bit her lip. "Dammit... dammit..."
If she kept shrinking away from taking chances like this with people, she'd never get anywhere! No, she could do this! To do what she wanted to do in life, she had to join a guild. And of all the guilds she knew of, Crystal Swan seemed to be the one that suited her best. Her nerves started to creep up again, her grip on her bag tightening. "Geeze, girl, pull yourself together..." She shook her head in annoyance. Why did she have to have these second thoughts and doubts? Why did she always have to assume people would reject her outright?
As she rounded a corner, her destination finally came into view. The Crystal Swan Guild Hall. One foot in front of the other.... just a bit further. "It'll be just like the story... the ugly duckling grows up to be a beautiful swan, right?" Vhesira took another deep, shaky breath... and... froze. She was a good 100 feet from the front door, her heart hammering in her chest. She was usually more confident than this, but when it came to putting herself out there and asking people to accept her... it was out of her element.
"Come on.... come on, Vhesira... dammit, you can't come all this way just to chicken out now...." She grit her teeth, squeezing her eyes shut as she willed her body to take one more step forward... except it didn't come. She was effectively paralyzed, trapped in an endless loop of self-encouragement and self-deprecation, with nothing to break the stalemate. Vhesira's eyes began to water, but the tears didn't fall yet, even as she bit her lip. "Dammit... dammit..."
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