Knowledge, the Endless Meal (Private/Eris)

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Among the number of places from which a person could choose to end up in their time away from the number of problems in their life, the monotony of picking sides and being judged based them. All of it was more than overwhelming and the need for unwinding came down to only one thing to do aside from staying far, far away from the guild; reading. It's been a long standing way for her to particularly escape the realities of life and enter another life for a time that she really needed it or just didn't want to face the harsh truths she had to endure as it was. It wasn't that much in the beginning, but as much as some would come to know of any life, everyone has a roller coaster effect that some days are better than others. It's easily something that she had come to find and master in a way that she could tune out everything around her and tunnel her focus onto one thing and one thing only when it mattered to her most. If the stories she read weren't of a fictional or mystery genre, she tended to move into anything that she could use to expand her knowledge and get just a little bit smarter. Honestly, it's the way she at first had gotten so enthusiastic about learning and expanding her own mind to the possibilities of everything in the world that would grow and expand. Life goals of discovering things and making her own book or books even just to enjoy those things even more was what she looked forward to the most out of life.

Still to this day, there's a glint of that possibility that floats around in her mind, if she could ever try to shake the bits of her life that people would judge her for and push her down and out in doing. Even so, it wasn't going to deter Madison from enjoying herself today, even if she wouldn't willingly use her normal appearance to do so just in a panic and fear that she would be seen and caught. Not that many people knew who she was to begin with, however the idea that she had gone through learning things from Sayrn for some time, that she would apply those teachings to a more normal standard of situations. Many people in the world could love knowledge like Madison normally does, and such that she wouldn't have to hide some aspects of herself and whatever else she had to do in order to stay clean of being found out. So in the spirit of disguises used to help blend into the normalcy of society, Madison remained at her normally retained height, long blonde hair tied up into twintails by a couple thin ribbons. Her attire consisted white button down shirt covered up mostly by a long sleeved green sweater and a yellow tie tucked between the two layers of shirts. A pair of black colored short shorts leaving little skin between them and the thigh high stockings down to a pair of slip in shoes with a strap over the top of the foot and tightened down with a buckle. Lastly,

With a small bag clutched into her right hand, holding several books within it, she had one book of a decent size in it of itself that was solely on the research and uses of lacrimas. How they had been used, their involvement with magical properties, how they reacted to infusing with humans and the like for their power. It was all completely astounding to learn about things like this, even months after she had come to not know what she was to do with the one already inside of her. It seemed to be something not covered in any way so far in her book in the half hour spent flying through page after page to be about half way at this point. Little sparks of her magic would pop her pages forward while her eyes scanned and watched the words collect in her mind and play back to her just as quick as when she had come to read them in the first place. Her pace continued along the streets, keeping close to the walls so she could have a sense of a direction of where she was going until she stepped onto a glass bottle and shattered it, startling the blonde from her reading to look up and at her surroundings. She'd wandered into a small section of a more "run down" side of Oak. The part was still very pretty to her itself, but it's not the kind of place she liked to be. Not when nothing around there seemed normal to her either.

The disguised blonde walked over to a small bench and set all of her things down. Lately, Madison had been holding onto a token from her meeting with Lestat. Something about his combative tendancies and everything had her mind adrift for a while. She reached into the pocket of her sweater and pulled out this token. Her eyes glared intently at it, much like she had from the first day that she'd come across this coin. "There's too many things I would want to get... No god could grant all of it, but..." She spoke to the token in hand as if it was talking back at her. The girl closed her hand around this token, closing her eyes and despite everything, took a moment of silence to cast her deepest wishes, sharing the memories that came with them into this token for whomever may or may not even be on the other side.

Her own thoughts began to fill up in her mind, getting absorbed into the past and all that there was to it for her. The idea that she'd have gotten wrapped up in her own thoughts wasn't the purpose of the sharing of her ideals and her secrets, actions, and choices up until this moment to have crossed points. Firstly with everything from Harrigan and what he'd had her endure and seeing that until the end was the first of things that she had bore into the back of her mind. She spent months praying for forgiveness- not just for herself, but also for him. It was just who she had been at the time and frankly, she pitied the choices he made and everything else that came with it. Even so, should he had been deemed unforgivable, there would be no cause for a lost nights sleep over it. After all this time, Madison still believes him to be the cause of everything that came to her because of it. If his end game was this, than she gave him much more credit than he deserved and regardless of anything else, no actions could stop her from traveling the path she was taking.

Once the seering sense of her chest having a sharp pain to it had snapped her from this entranced state, her eyes popped open and she looked into her hand. It was wide open and for some reason, the coin wasn't in the palm of her hand like before. The warm sensation from earlier was gone and she had no idea why that was or for what reason she could have forgotten she held the coin. Even the sound of the metal clanking onto the ground was silent. It was gone. Nowhere below her this token could be found, and for the color from which it was, it wouldn't be a hard thing to miss around this type of area either. Her eyes gazed over the ground, slowly circling further and further out from her should it have rolled, when she spotted a red glare of its own out of the corner of her eye. As she turned towards it, the coin sat at the end of the alley, miraculously having not even moved or been picked up by a stranger, she eyed it confused by how it could have logically rolled from her position to there, but with a simple shrug, the red head began to approach the coin.

A sudden pause after her first step lasted for just a moment, but it was what she heard that had her momentarily caught dead in her tracks. "Did it.. just speak?" A whispered tone came as the girl starred at the coin for only a moment, peering into the glimmering orbs of the token on the far side before starting to walk towards it once again. Mavbe she was simply hearing things and it was her imagination? While that could have been the case, the fact she needed to get this coin again was what was now on her mind. If a sign came from it while she didn't hold it, she wondered if the token would vanish and she would end up losing out on the one thing that could change her life for the better. Rushing down the way, she stopped over top before bending down to reach for it, her hand and arm hiding the coins appearance completely.

Concrete. That was the first thing she felt with her fingertips instead of the cold metallic feeling of the token itself. Sliding her fingertips along it, she felt nothing but more and more of the ground beneath her and as she picked up her hand to see the coin... It was gone. Was she seeing things now too? Could someone be tricking her too? The whole thing was confusing; getting lost in her thoughts and losing track of this token, only to feel as though she was missing something. Again, she began to look around for the coin, as if she had simply maybe knocked it aside or overstepped despite what she thought she had just about gotten a hand onto after dropping it the first time. Slowly working from her person outward, she had even gotten into her own pockets just to make sure that she didn't imagine everything and it had ended up in there after all. Peering down the alley she just walked, her attention turned to the alleys down the way, spotting the same red gleam further away this time.

Wasting little time, Madison headed to each one, crossing street and street again with no real care to what were in the alleys she walked through. She was determined to get this token back, no matter how long she had to follow the thing to get it. While the blonde gotten to the coin once more, she paused as she reached for the coin. Though her eyes locked onto the coin to confirm her picking it up, she stopped as something began to seem different around where she was. Her head looked up for just a moment as the lights around her had looked like brush strokes of a painting, slowly growing more voluminous and vibrant, lifelike and bright until they had turned into bright, fluorescent lighting. Her eyes squinted at the light and she went back to the coin, wanting to grab it before wondering just how far she'd actually traveled. The little outline of the coin blinked several times to where the coin had been, noting that it again, had gone missing. "Lord... Why do you joke with me like this?" She spoke, looking up toward the sky before a light droplet of rain plopped onto her face, making her flinch.

With a low annoyed growl, Madi headed inward to the street before her, lit up with many of the same lights as before. It was then she realized just what was going on. The coin was the actual sign it seemed, after many times of a blonde moment or few. Slowly, her attention drew to the stores and the scenery around while the light rain slowly began to stain her clothing and hair with the water with no real worry or even attention paid to it. The first she'd come to had women posed in the display case area, dressed and make up placed on them to make them appear inhuman while collars and a chain tethered them to a pole like they were trained slaves. The sight alone made her want to act against it, however she stopped herself before even moving past the idea in mind and slowly walked past it.

A smile formed on her face, though small as in the distance she could make out the appearance of a church. In such an odd type of place, she seemed to find something like that to which at first glance was left in a pristine condition. She could respect that outlook, as even the oddest of souls could be of the strictest beliefs sometimes. Roughly a half of a block away, the smile that she wore on her face had turned into something of horror. A mortified look of shock and disbelief. Vandalism on a place like  church had crushed her heart, or what was left of that with the lacrima inside of it. She studied the appearance and writings of the graffiti on the walls, looking at the scripture written on it, however she seemed to feel distanced with the shattered look of the glass making her mind believe that a spider hung on the stained glass and her stepping back away from it. Her fear of spiders, the larger the scarier, had made her afraid to go close enough to make the creature attack her if it was even a real thing.

Turning away from the church, wanting to leave it behind her and forget it... though that in itself would end up becoming impossible. The warmth of the coin drew her attention to a pair of larger men... Or male like beings. The token embedded in his chest was among the first of things she had noticed on him before she'd actually looked to his face and seen the way he starred down at her. The girls attention then appeared to the door near the men, but away from the line of people waiting to enter the building they had wanted to join. There, she noticed a familiar thing leaned against the door. "You rascal, you." She said in a low tone, taking a step before the coin wasn't there anymore. Before her eyes in a blink of her eyes, it was gone. Her hand clasped over something warm in her left hand, she lifted it up, holding the coin out on her palm as it was now in her hand as though she'd never lost it to begin with. "Is.. this where you want me to go..?" She asked the coin, looking dead into the coins eyes. She jumped as the doors before her now opened up for her. As though she had no control or care of what it was, Madison walked inside of the place before her, stepping through the door and the magic concealing her red headed appearance had shed from the magic and no notice of it having happened, doors shutting tight behind her once inside, her attention completely drawn into the scenery before her.

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