by Jiyu Kazehime 25th March 2017, 7:21 pm
The words echoed so painfully in her slightly long elfin ears as if someone was dragging their nails down the chalkboard with the express purpose of throwing one of her most sensitive organs into agony. No matter how she tried to process what was going on at that very moment? Everything faded out into the past and suddenly she was on the outskirts of this village again watching her own life go by as tears fell freely down her face. Many sleepless nights lately she had wished that she could have just minded her own damn business on that date because if she had the agony ripping through her heart right now wouldn’t exist. Some people had the ability to travel in time and change it, that was an ability that Kazehime would die for, she knew that she couldn’t change something like her mother’s death, or her own capture, but surely she could stop herself from making that contract which lead to the death of her best friend! If she wasn’t directly intervening in someone’s death, surely she could alter just one day, change a single thing to prevent the heinous unbearable future waiting for them. None of it was fair, she had lost so much in her life, and the very second when she had thought it was alright to actually start moving on from the pain she had to suffer more pain in silence to save the world built around her, than her silence amount to nothing because Leila had to go and do that! Not that Jiyu was not happy to be alive, because who would not want to be of the living, but she despised that it had come at the price of her best friends own life. Some days within the first few weeks she had considered seeing if she found a way to truly end it if the energy Leila had given her would return to the eden mage, but clearly, people had been there to keep from doing such things. In spite of how much she wanted her best friend back, she had to accept that such an event would never be able to take place because what had happened was done, she couldn’t undo it, she couldn’t save one of the people she had wanted to protect most.
At least Jiyu had been thinking that as time went on, while she tried desperately to hold on and let go at the same exact time. Everything that transpired kept playing back behind her water locked optics the whole world blurrier than it normally was, turning to face the location her ears thought the noise came from. The girl had not been expecting to see anything whatsoever, honestly, she had expected it to be a trick of her brain played on her because this was the first time she returned here since leila had died. Jiyu couldn’t believe what she was seeing for the moment, convinced she was hallucinating as the white haired girl kept speaking and moving, her own newly shifted form failing rendering her into the body Leila was familiar with. “Leila.” the word rolling off her tongue felt like pouring burning hot poison into her own body, lightning every single nerve on fire and then brutally destroying each one slowly. If losing her mother had been the first defining moment in her life, and her capture the second, one could easily without a doubt call losing Leila the third. Growing up in peace village Jiyu had made some friends but they were one’s she’d been forced to leave behind they weren’t one’s who knew ‘jiyu’ they knew someone else. Once she became a ship rat, she wasn’t very good at making deep meaningful connections! Leila had been one of the first real things she had in her career as a mage, in her life as one, one of the first friends she had made in a long time. Losing someone like that? Was devastating, yet seeing the figure was just shattering, crushing, she was standing and yet she could not get back up!
Noheme’s leaving was not even noted by the wind mage. Suddenly the markings on Jiyu’s face turned red, this color bleeding to her claws as well, movement quicker than anyone could anticipate “Why” the thought faded away as the assertive face grabbed the front of the other girls outfit roughly, yanking on it to pull the other girl down closer to her height, but it ended up in a weird position with the top of Jiyu’s ebony head pushed into her friend’s chest between her own hands. In spite of its nature? The vengeful spirit suddenly loosened its grip, opened hands remaining that way as the arms tentatively moved to embrace the other girl, slowly feeling and learning that what she held was indeed real. “Leila.” the word slipped again, the name uttered but the voice was much different from the normal kazehime’s voice more filled with bitterness, laced with pain, betrayal, agony! Assertive was all the negativity that Mysterious and the other two drown out, denied and ignored, so it only made sense she’d emerge in a straining situation like this. “She say’s I can’t understand because I only feel our negativity..” the gruff almost animalistic voice faded off as she shifted herself slightly, legs not quite wanting to hold her own weight thus entrusting all of that meager mass to the woman she clung to. “I thought they were right until right now. They all wanted you back, so why am I the one talking to you, why do we hurt so much right now!” she held vengeance and it was what assertive was most well known for, but it was not just spite that made this face real, it was all negativity, including sorrow. The assertive face lifted her head slightly, tear streaked visage looking at the blue eyed woman once more before embracing her again a deep growl stemming from her throat. “I want to send you back to the afterlife for putting us through this, but our body won’t listen to me!” as the statement faded into the air, red clawed finger’s twined in white hair, gripping it somewhat roughly.