Very Important Notice

Everyone! I am Luca Alessandro, and before you hit that "ban" button, just hear me out for my mistakes first, and read this story:

In late August, from numerous sources, and while under a very overwhelming period of life (very stressful and depressing beyond belief), I received countless hate messages. During this time, my shunt was broken, and I was feeling immeasurable pain. My eyes felt like they were going to explode because my epilepsy is affiliated with my hydrocephalus, and I was as pale as paper due to my anemia (affiliated with epilepsy). As you can see, with these three health conditions, receiving countless, hateful messages did not help at all. None of them were from any RP sites (including this one), but rather social networks. It made me so enraged that I just didn't trust anyone anymore, and I became just as hateful as these people were to me. They had no reason to be hateful to me just as I had no reason to be hateful to you guys. I was so enraged that I just did not understand what I was doing, and ended up unravelling a message that would definitely keep everyone out of my way for the time being: I faked my own death.

You may now be asking why I did that, and the answer is: I was a psycho. Immeasurable amounts of pain just made me want to tear everything and everyone apart, because I no longer trusted anyone, and felt hated beyond anyone's understanding. I threw a fit at everyone, cut ties with everyone personal to me for a while, and just went somewhere to be alone for a very long time. Unconsciously, I sent the same message to every place I exist on the Internet so everyone would think I'm non-existent. However, the personality I had when I sent this message to you all was far from my usual personality. It was far from my frequent persona that made the other farewell message you received on the site (when I said I was going to Harvard to attend law school).


I was completely suicidal during the time, and had no idea what to do. This was the only site that never harmed me, so I still wanted to exist on it later on. I wanted to embrace those warm feelings again, so I made an account that was made to enact my ex-girlfriend: Anita. I needed emotional help more than ever, though after realizing the unforgivable crime I committed, I knew that introducing the real me again would not help. I made endless excuse on that damned account just to evade the fact that I did, indeed, fake my own death. You people were, and still are too special for me to receive a message like this, though I must do it, anyway. I felt so scared making one account to hide this story that I made another: this one. Lie after lie; all to try and cover up an inevitable sin. The fact that I'm even acknowledging how crazy I was in the past all because of hate messages is more than humiliating to myself. I became terrified after regaining myself that my madness had brought me to commit such a sin that I planned to hide my identity forever. However, then I thought what God (the god I believe in) would think of me. I expected to go to hell knowing that I made a very large community believe I was actually dead. I was just absolutely insane. I could not control myself. All I thought was to make others miserable so I would not have to deal with their messages anymore, and I accidentally hit the site that loved me most.


Generally, because I felt so close to death myself, I went on an unbelievable hit four months ago unconsciously to make everyone believe I was dead already. I was done with the hate. I was done with the misery. I did not even know myself anymore, and went so psycho that I could not even tell what I was doing. I even required therapy to help me get through my hate problems. So, to conclude, you were all right about the biggest liar to ever step foot on your site. With this being said, I am going to tell you all about the real me:



My real name is not actually Luca Alessandro. I used that as a fake name because I was lurked online many times until I successfully gathered the information of these pests, and had them arrested. My real name is Tyler. I am a 19-year-old Canadian who is only fluent with the English language, and has not even started university yet. I am a scrawny young adult who has a history of continuous lies due to making others not feel proud of him, whatsoever. This actually existed until this very year. Whether you care about my real identity or not is up to you. I have Italian background and a little Dutch, but that's it. I am only learning Italian; that is all. It was a disorder, actually; those non-stop lies I made because countless people in my life were not proud of me. They did not show any happiness towards me, and only the hate that I described above.


I apologize as much as I possibly can to all who have suffered from my fake death. Yes, I am completely sane in the sense that I'm no longer throwing any sort of mean messages to anyone, but rather being completely honest. My family became aware of all of this just recently, and advised me to make this message, though I beat them to it. All of my family is still alive. If there was one truth through all of this madness I knew I was still giving out, it was the personality we all once shared under the name "Kichiro Yukine." Take me off of that honorary list because I am not a saint, nor honorary in any sense. I have literally screwed myself over because of an unbearable event and disorder. I literally discarded people I could imagine being brothers and sisters- or at least my best friends- because of this same event and disorder. I have nothing to hide anymore. I am done hiding. I am still saying sorry from the bottom of my heart though I still know I will not be forgiven. Why?


Because you all deserve to hear this. I will leave it up to you people whether or not all three accounts should be banned, or whether or not you will actually speak to me again. No, I am not trying my best to maintain my membership on this site, so discard that thought please. I am deserving of an IP ban because of that message, and I know it. I just want this story to be told before I find myself in this hell for an even longer time. Take note of this because I have probably pulled the biggest mistake in RP history, and need this to remain here so I further acknowledge the greatest sin I have committed, and become a better person due to the same acknowledgement.

Goodbye.

I'm just glad that you are not gone. I missed you.

*Sigh* Phew were should I start with this... Oh yeah... Do you know how much friggen grief you caused me man?! These last four months have been HELL for me! I had trouble focusing in school and everything else! I dont care how much you lied to me... you were like a brother to me and you still are in my mind man.

Glad to have you back

its the internet. >.>

Its your own business to go by an alias or do whatever you want. You didn't interfere with anybodies rp ability in the end although you may have pissed a few people off and freaked them out. this is not the greatest of sins.

I quote the great Ban of Nanatsu no taizai: "I true sin can never be forgiven."

You'll be fine now get your rear back here. We'll kick it a few times, and move on to our happy rp relationship.

*Smacks a couple times* Dat's for lying. But I am glad that you are back and I am glad that you came out with the truth. I cried, so so much, you were the first person to teach me how to RP, and after I thought you died I tried to my best to be welcoming like you were. But I can't stay mad at you. Not at all. I am just glad that you are here and not somewhere else.

i can get where you coming from

but like - never ever lie about your dead! i have bad memories of that and i cant like peopel who do the same thing. tough i do see that you had your reasons. next time just ask help and our community would have helped. were ft we stick tohgeter

Well, all i can say is that i really want to smack you right now. I have considered you as a friend before and i still do, be it under a different account name, doesn't matter to me. I've had fun talking to you regardless, as you are fun to talk to.

So in my book, i hold nothing against you. I hope we'll still talk on skype, as i hope both of us are still friends. Also, Don't.Ever.Do.That.Again

Well, what can I say here really?

I've faked a few things online, such as gender for example. Never faked my own death, but we were never that close back then (don't even think we rped) so when I heard you died I was like 'oh that's sort of sad. Don't expect that to happen' and now your back.

Rising from the dead. Can't really judge you on that. I mean I have a zombie on site and if I start judging people for coming back from the dead i'd be judging a lot of religions....eh too much hassle. Welcome back. Just don't do it again k?

I and the other admins of the site will discuss what we are going to do with this news, because like you said faking your own death, even though it is understandable why you did it. Is still quite an offense, let alone the people you may have hurt by doing so. There were even people who asked for you to be honored, so we put up some honorary Wizard Saint Spot.


But I must say, I sincerely appreciate your honesty, and that is always a step in the right direction to make amends. I think you don't have to worry that much about your membership of the site, it is clear that you love rp and this place here. I mean why else would you keep hanging around after hiding your identity for over an year.

On further notice of this, I am closing this thread. In case people decide to go ranting in here, who are really mad.

On an extra note, for those this news is a bit more personal then others and already have responded. It's good to see that you have approached this with understanding and maturity. Because what he has gone through has been quite a lot, and only with support and friendship even if it comes from the internet makes him feel better.