It was in the wee hours of the morning that Hana found herself awake once more, staring blankly at the ceiling just as she had been doing for the past few days, ever since her team disbanded, and most of the members left the guild. The only ones who remained were her and Ethan, but they hardly ever spoke with each other. That shouldn't matter, right? They had their rights, they could leave if they wanted, why would she even care about them? To her, they were only comrades... But didn't Indar say that they were friends? That they saw her as a friend as well?
No, that couldn't be true. Viola, Priscilla, they didn't regard the rest of the team members as friends. They saw them as monsters, as killers, and they turned against them. They left them. She remembered how hateful Viola sounded, back on her first and last team mission.
"Do you think I'd even bother to talk to any of them after what they did to all those innocent people.. They killed.. So many innocent people, Mel.."
Hana scoffed. Innocent? There was no such thing as innocence. So what if they killed people? It was their job to! Hadn't she thought that even the legal mages killed people too? Hadn't she thought that the Magic Council also killed 'innocents', and many fellow Nox Animus members as well? And instead of even stopping to remember them, to even mourn them, she cried for those she barely knew. Instead of saving all the Nox Animus members that were struggling against Rune Knights, she chose to save outsiders' lives!
Hana's eyes widened. Why was she fretting so much over such a trivial matter? And why had she even thought that they were her friends? Why, they never had been friends from the start. They were merely acquaintances. All Indar had told her was simply a lie. Friends wouldn't hate each other, they wouldn't look at each other with contempt, they wouldn't abandon each other... Would they?
...Perhaps a visit to Alexander would clear all that up. Asarael wouldn't be of much help now, not when he was mad and giving her the cold shoulders. So Alexander would be the only person she could consult.
"Oh God... What was I thinking? It's only 4 in the morning, nobody would be up that early. In such a fool..." she muttered, pinching her nose bridge as she stood outside his door.
No, that couldn't be true. Viola, Priscilla, they didn't regard the rest of the team members as friends. They saw them as monsters, as killers, and they turned against them. They left them. She remembered how hateful Viola sounded, back on her first and last team mission.
"Do you think I'd even bother to talk to any of them after what they did to all those innocent people.. They killed.. So many innocent people, Mel.."
Hana scoffed. Innocent? There was no such thing as innocence. So what if they killed people? It was their job to! Hadn't she thought that even the legal mages killed people too? Hadn't she thought that the Magic Council also killed 'innocents', and many fellow Nox Animus members as well? And instead of even stopping to remember them, to even mourn them, she cried for those she barely knew. Instead of saving all the Nox Animus members that were struggling against Rune Knights, she chose to save outsiders' lives!
Hana's eyes widened. Why was she fretting so much over such a trivial matter? And why had she even thought that they were her friends? Why, they never had been friends from the start. They were merely acquaintances. All Indar had told her was simply a lie. Friends wouldn't hate each other, they wouldn't look at each other with contempt, they wouldn't abandon each other... Would they?
...Perhaps a visit to Alexander would clear all that up. Asarael wouldn't be of much help now, not when he was mad and giving her the cold shoulders. So Alexander would be the only person she could consult.
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"Oh God... What was I thinking? It's only 4 in the morning, nobody would be up that early. In such a fool..." she muttered, pinching her nose bridge as she stood outside his door.