| COME AT ME AND YOU'LL SEE
I'M MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE
--- YOU THINK THAT YOU'LL BREAK ME, YOU'RE GONNA FIND IN TIME --- |
Mercury knew his death would not be pretty, of course. Few deaths were. She wanted to insist that she could handle it, for his sake, and he was appreciative of the care that went with her desire to go with him. But he still insisted it was better that no one else join him. The Xocili didn’t like it, but she understood it was his choice and the least she could do was honor that, as much as it hurt.
It took incredible force of will on her part, but she did manage to push herself forward to embrace him, speaking the only words she could manage to voice. Her heart felt like it was in a vice, the rest of the world completely shut out. It was just the two of them, holding one another for the last time, with simple but powerful assurances of how much they cared for one another. He hugged her for several long minutes, her crying not getting any easier during that time, with the Terran finding some tears of his own as well. She continued to shake with tears and snot dripping down her face. He must have known he would have to be the one to pull away, because Mercury simply didn’t have the strength. He hesitated only long enough to give her a lingering kiss on her forehead. Everything within her told her to give him one last kiss on his lips, but… she knew she couldn’t. That wouldn’t be fair to either of them, and it would only make it harder for them both. Just because her heart was breaking and she was in pain didn’t give her the right to be selfish.
The knowledge didn’t stop her from feeling cold once they were fully separated. Mercury wrapped her arms around her body, which continued to quiver as she watched him step back toward the center of the hall. The only thing that momentarily abated her crying, or at least calmed it down somewhat, was the sheer surprise of their surroundings changing. Somehow, they were all suddenly standing in a field that would look familiar only to Serilda and Mythal. Mercury looked around in confusion, as did many others, only to find that there was another figure standing among them; one that Mercury and Cillian could both easily identify.
“Halcyon…” Mercury breathed quietly, her voice still shaky. Even Cillian stood a little straighter, a deep smile pulling on his lips at the sight of the other Terran, who apparently had Lux and Quentin to thank for the opportunity to see the gathered group with his own eyes. He explained that he’d been able to get to know them a bit via Blade’s memories, touched by all the time and care they had afforded his brother, and thanking them for taking Raeran in and giving him a family in place of the one they had both lost. Despite everything, Mercury managed a smile, though it trembled violently from her continued sorrow that still mixed in with everything else. It was one thing to know that they had been able to save the Terran people in a fashion, turning them into Teras, but it was another to see the third and eldest brother in his own form and his own spirit.
Halcyon spared a further comment only toward Cillian, teasing that perhaps one day the necromancer would manage to be able to summon him more successfully in the future, though he appreciated the prior effort. Cillian laughed lightly. “Might be asking a little much,” he teased back. “I doubt any of us ever actually have all of our wits about us. I sure don’t.” He was happy to leave it at that. There was no point explaining that he could speak to them without having to raise their bodies or reanimate their spirits in any form. Getting into the semantics of all that, well… it would only ruin the beautiful and emotional moment that was happening.
With a final wave he was gone, as was the field, and they found themselves once more in Mythal and Serilda’s home, where a portal awaited to take Raeran to his final destination. He gave them a farewell in the tongue of his people before offering its translation and his hope that he would see them all again some day – just, not too soon. Then, with one more parting wish to their health and assurance of how much he would miss them, he was gone.
Mercury had to force herself to stay where she was, every inclination in her body demanding that she run through the portal after him. As the doorway shrank and shut, her grief consumed her once more. “B-Blade…” she whimpered. Her head started to swim, the world around her spinning. She fell to the ground on her ass hard, collapsing completely as she lost herself to her tears. Her already erratic breathing became worse and after only a few moments she started to hyperventilate, the panic attack hitting her in full. The only thought she had, the only thing that lingered in her head and repeated itself over and over again, was the understanding that she would never see him again, that she had managed to save his people but lost him in the process, her guilt over being partially responsible for his fate reaching up and slapping her in the face after so long of denying the part of her that did feel responsible for it.
In the end, Vandrad would have to carry her out to a more private area of the home where he could sit with her without the eyes of everyone else watching her in her sorrow. Already several people that had managed to keep themselves composed for the most part were shedding a few tears of their own, Agatha having to turn against her own husband for comfort as she finally began to openly weep, albeit not as loudly and desperately as Mercury had.
As promised, Serilda and Mythal kept their home open for everyone to stick around and find companionship and comfort in one another for as long as everyone wanted to stay, including Cillian. They all gathered in the great room where there was plenty of space for everyone, sharing drinks, swapping stories, and simply enjoying each other’s company. There were certainly more tears from time to time, but there was laughter and peace as well. At some point Serilda was of the mind to have some snacks put together, knowing that grief consumed a lot of energy and that her guests would need to eat. She was both surprised and a bit off put when Cillian offered to put something together for them, the necromancer assuring them that he made a living as a cook and informing them about the restaurant he owned in Crocus. It was… well, more than a little disconcerting to think of allowing a dark mage to cook for her own household, but even she couldn’t deny that her reservations with Cillian only went so far. Dela clearly loved him and trusted him, and Blade had spoken highly of him, insisting that Cillian was a good person at heart, no matter his magical abilities and status with the council.
Ultimately, she agreed and gave the man full rein of the kitchen, and it was somehow one of the best decisions she’d ever made. Cillian was a flabbergastingly good chef, and he was able to put together quite the array of comfort foods from their stores of ingredients. At some point while the necromancer was cooking, Vandrad and Mercury did eventually rejoin with everyone else. The Xocili’s eyes were swollen and puffy from crying, and she still didn’t have a whole lot of energy. Her gaze often drifted in and out like she wasn’t fully paying attention to everyone around her, and every once in a while quiet tears found her face again, but she didn’t dissolve into another panic attack. As difficult as it was to focus at times, she did allow herself to be comforted by any that put themselves in a position to do so, which did include Serilda, Agatha, Zemenar, and even both Saffron and Khelben.
It would be a long time before Mercury would feel like herself again, if she ever fully did, but having everyone there to share in her grief at the very least helped her feel less alone. She was sure she would heal in time, even if she didn’t know how long that would take… but she would never, ever forget her friend.
A week had passed since Blade’s departure, and life had settled back into some semblance of normalcy. For most of them, at least. Mercury was still more quiet than usual and still prone to moments of sorrow and grief, but that was understandable. As far as Saffron understood it, the Xocili had never lost anyone before, as she’d never had the luxury of learning to care for people at all until coming to Earthland, so she was having to navigate her first exposure to grief, both for Blade and for Genesis. And anyone who had ever been through it before understood that it took a great deal of time to process and come to terms with, some people needing more of it than others.
For Saffron, however, she had bounced back from everything rather quickly. Things had more or less gone back to the way things were, though the emotional connection between her and Trevor was a bit super charged, now. The Confidence International guildmaster had scarcely let Saffron out of his sight since her return, and frankly the blonde couldn’t blame him. They still had not made anything official between them, as Saffron understood that she would need a little more time to come down from the trauma of almost dying before she was ready to finalize any commitments, but the pair were all but a couple by that point. It had been a long, long time since she’d felt good about someone holding that kind of special place in her life, and while she still teased and bullied the man as much as ever, there was no mistaking the looks of admiration in her eyes from time to time when she glanced his way.
She still felt a bit awkward, of course. Her feelings for Cedric hadn’t exactly simmered down, and while they refrained from anything physical, they still couldn’t help but relentlessly flirt with one another. The former Dread Master had made it very clear that he was going to be respectful and encouraging toward her relationship with Trevor, but neither did he plan on putting any distance between them. They still talked pretty much daily, and while they hadn’t gotten to see much of one another since Blade left – mostly because Trevor was, understandably, hogging her time for a bit – they were still making plans to see each other again soon to catch up on their shows and just chill.
Part of the reason she hadn’t really seen Cedric, too, was because Delinquent Ward had a concert coming up, so they had lots of rehearsals to make sure their setlist was finalized and their skills sharpened and ready to go. When the day of the concert arrived, they found themselves in the capital city of Crocus, rocking out for a few hours in front of a huge and raucous crowd. There were earnestly so many people present that it was impossible to single out any faces, particularly from where she was further back on the stage, set up behind her massive fifteen piece drum kit that she’d purchased from Dimitri a number of months ago. The band poured their heart into the performance, as they always did, caving into three encores before they finally insisted on calling it a night and bidding their fans farewell.
After making a small pit stop in one of the hallways to sign a few impromptu autographs for a few fans that had lingered in hopes of getting their signatures, the four of them finally retired into the large dressing room they’d been provided. After downing a bottle of water, Saffron slipped behind one of the many changing screens and doffed her sweat soaked clothing, swapping it out for a loose fitting fair of cargo pants and a slightly oversized black crop top, as well as a baseball cap. With a sigh, she plopped her ass down into a couch as she waited for the others to finish getting changed. “That was a great crowd,” the blonde remarked, twisting the cap off a fresh bottle of water and giving it another sip. “I’m surprised I could even hear any of you guys, they were so loud.”
After a couple minutes there was a knock at the door and one of their stage managers, Rodney, popped his head in. “Wonderful performances all around, guys! I think that was one of the best performances you’ve put on yet. You really should be proud. The stadium was all but sold out, and I’m told that a solid eighty percent of the merchandise we brought along was sold. As usual it will probably take a day or two to get the final figures, but I’ll send everything over to Trevor once I get the paperwork from the stadium.” That seemed to be the end of it, as it usually was; Rodney was usually the one to greet them after the shows to give them an update on the numbers, and from there the band was typically left to their own engagements for the rest of the night, which usually meant that Emma dragged the rest of them off to get drinks.
Saffron was surprised, then, when Rodney turned to her. “Also, it seems you have a few friends hoping to see you. Normally I wouldn’t bother entertaining them – people will say anything for a chance to meet someone they idolize. But, it’s not every day that someone the likes of Missus de la Cavalleria requests a backstage pass…”
Her brows shot up and a grin split her face. “Aw shit, Agatha’s here?”
“Yes, along with two men that I didn’t recognize.”
“No worries. If they’re friends with Agatha, I’m sure they’re trustworthy and I probably know them. You guys cool with that?” She posed the question to her bandmates, though she highly doubted any of them were going to have complaints about Agatha joining them, though perhaps a few questions about how the hell Saffron even knew her. Presuming the three of them gave the thumbs up, she give Rodney a nod. “Send them in, Rod. Thanks, buddy!”
He ran off to go collect them and just a couple minutes later the door knocked again, revealing two familiar faces. The first was Agatha. The redhead led the way through the door, dressed in a red midriff shirt with puffy sleeves that came down to her elbows with white sheer fabric draped down her forearm. The shirt itself was mostly modest, although her abundance of cleavage was difficult to miss. She wore a high waisted set of black slacks and hand a fair bit of gold jewelry on. The Lusty Titans guild master practically bounced on her toes, a wide smile across her face as she giddily hurried her way over to Saffron, who was already standing to greet her. “Saff..!”
The blonde grunted as Agatha very nearly tackled her into a hug, Saffron grinning and returning the gesture. “Hey, girl! What a surprise! You could have told me you were coming.”
“Well it was kind of a last minute thing, or else we might have. You were fantastic! I knew you were a musician, but I had no idea you were so incredibly talented! All of you are!” She separated from Saffron and turned to the others. “Hi! Sorry to drop in without warning. I’m Agatha de la Cavalleria, and I was blown away by your show. Seriously!” She went around to start shaking everyone else’s hands.
In the meantime, Saffron finally got a chance to see who had come with her. She didn’t recognize the incredibly short man, but her purple eyes lit up when they fell on the other man. “Cedric..!” She made her way over to the former Dread Master and gave him a tight hug as well. When they finally parted, she smirked up at him and gave him a playful punch on the shoulder. “So how long were you planning this, jackass?”