Even after thinking about it for days, she still didn’t know if what she was doing was right and as the pink haired girl entered the inn and nervously headed for the bar, her expression seemed to darken by the second. She’d fought monsters and gods but never had she felt as nervous as she did now, her mind starting to overflow with questions that she just didn’t know the answers to. What if she was known to this guild? What if she was wanted? What if she’d be laughed at and humiliated before being thrown out of the inn just for inquiring? What if her mother found out what she was about to do? They all bothered her but it was the last one in particular that bothered her the most. For so long she had worshipped her mother, drinking in every word and following her life lessons as though they were gospel and yet now, she’d been forced to face a terrifying truth. A truth that had shattered her confidence and left her as the twitching wreck that she was now.
It had all been gibberish. All of it.
All of Sarisha’s speeches about them being above humans and that they were supposed to terrorise and sow chaos were nothing more than the ravings of a lunatic, drunk with power and completely out of her mind. Cierra had spent her entire life training endlessly. Killing, kidnapping, stealing. You name it, she’d most likely had done it and to suddenly realise that it was all for nothing filled her with panic. She was just her mother’s monster, born and raised to be nothing more than a conduit of destruction to be let loose on the world whenever Sarisha felt the desire to. The pink haired girl had spent her whole life trying to earn the approval of someone that was never going to give it and now she had to live with her crimes against humanity. All of those lives ended by her hand. It’d never crossed her mind then, as deluded as she’d been but now? It had hit her like a truck. She couldn’t bring them back so what could she do?
Sighing, she hopped up onto one of the barstools and silently watched the people around her. They all seemed cheerful enough and Cierra couldn’t help but feel jealous of them. They were so content and happy with their lives, something that she was unsure if she’d ever feel again. The only way forward was to cut herself off from the past and try to make something new, an idea that petrified her if she was honest. There was so much she didn’t know, naive in so many ways, her mind on a different wavelength to everyone else’s. Her hands kept twitching, wanting to move them towards the two swords that hung from her waist, to revert back to her natural instinct, give in to her fear and just raise hell. It was a powerful desire and the pinkette struggled to fight it off.
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It had all been gibberish. All of it.
All of Sarisha’s speeches about them being above humans and that they were supposed to terrorise and sow chaos were nothing more than the ravings of a lunatic, drunk with power and completely out of her mind. Cierra had spent her entire life training endlessly. Killing, kidnapping, stealing. You name it, she’d most likely had done it and to suddenly realise that it was all for nothing filled her with panic. She was just her mother’s monster, born and raised to be nothing more than a conduit of destruction to be let loose on the world whenever Sarisha felt the desire to. The pink haired girl had spent her whole life trying to earn the approval of someone that was never going to give it and now she had to live with her crimes against humanity. All of those lives ended by her hand. It’d never crossed her mind then, as deluded as she’d been but now? It had hit her like a truck. She couldn’t bring them back so what could she do?
Sighing, she hopped up onto one of the barstools and silently watched the people around her. They all seemed cheerful enough and Cierra couldn’t help but feel jealous of them. They were so content and happy with their lives, something that she was unsure if she’d ever feel again. The only way forward was to cut herself off from the past and try to make something new, an idea that petrified her if she was honest. There was so much she didn’t know, naive in so many ways, her mind on a different wavelength to everyone else’s. Her hands kept twitching, wanting to move them towards the two swords that hung from her waist, to revert back to her natural instinct, give in to her fear and just raise hell. It was a powerful desire and the pinkette struggled to fight it off.
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