Hi, everyone! I am having a very hard time. I’m constantly having to ward off negative thoughts, and it’s really a struggle. As I get older everything seems to pale and I get so much sadder than I ever thought possible. My sleep patterns have never been the greatest, I spend nights fighting urges that I cant afford to follow through with because I have so much happening and people depending on me. I love them and they love me. I’ve been dealing with this for a very long time.
I cry daily, like, every morning and every night when I’m alone because I don’t want my mother or brother seeing me like that. But I think my family is picking up on it and they’ve been very supportive which is helping me a great deal. I’m sorry for getting very personal there, but wanted to mention this last bit so as confirm I am getting the help I need and there’s no need to really worry.
With all that being said, I will be around because distraction is good. I just don’t want to feel the pressure of posting until I’m feeling this sadness a little less intensely. I hope that’s ok. :) I want to take a hiatus from posting until March 11, 2021.
I cry daily, like, every morning and every night when I’m alone because I don’t want my mother or brother seeing me like that. But I think my family is picking up on it and they’ve been very supportive which is helping me a great deal. I’m sorry for getting very personal there, but wanted to mention this last bit so as confirm I am getting the help I need and there’s no need to really worry.
With all that being said, I will be around because distraction is good. I just don’t want to feel the pressure of posting until I’m feeling this sadness a little less intensely. I hope that’s ok. :) I want to take a hiatus from posting until March 11, 2021.