Name: Esther Kinahan
Gender: Female
Age: Approximately 20
Birthday: 29 of August
Sexuality: Unspecified
Special Characteristics: N/A
Nickname: Tess
Alias: Contessa Verardi
Personality:
Delusional, in the kindest way possible. Some people would say Tess is crazy and do their best to avoid her. She's okay with that, as long as they are happy—as long as they are not suffering—as long as they are numb to the pain in the rest of the world that she witnesses every day. Edgy as it may sound, she is hyper aware of what she considers the dark situation in Earthland.
To go on, Tess tries to be as sweet as powdered sugar to people. A lover of girly things, her favorite colors are blue and white, but also pink, purple, and red—the color of blood. On the surface, she seems like an ordinary, if a bit pompous 17 year old. She social media stalks people she finds cute, dabbles in makeup, and experiments with cute hairstyles from videos on the internet. Tess loves kittens, flowers, and anything that shines. But she has another side. While she loves designing clothes and donating to orphans, she has a bad habit of killing people. She hates pain and suffering, so if she sees someone with even just a minor sprain or injury, she may kill them if left to her own devices. In her actions, Tess thinks she is helping people, because she doesn't want them to suffer through a life of pain or shame, even for a single minute. In her mind, all of this is done with good intentions. Tess loves to see what peoples' blood looks like, especially when it is drained in just the right way so that it is art and not disgusting. Of course, any artist would take good care of their materials. Her victims never are in pain during any projects. As a general rule, Tess does not like mean people or those who hurt others on purpose. Except for her; she is an exception, because she means well so any unfortunate events are always by accident. Hypocrisy is her first language.
Out of battle, she smiles a lot and tries to help people out when possible. Tess tries to do what people want her to do and is a people pleaser. A dreamer, she has a slightly childish feel, fitting of a person younger than herself. Some people say she seems kind of numb, emotionally wise, at times. This is her lack of true empathy. Most of the time, she hides it well and appears to be a sweet, caring individual. Tess does not try to break rules or anything like that, because she appreciates structure and its ability to lead to happiness. But if societal laws were to ever stand in her way, she would unhesitatingly bash them down. Tess takes things very literally. She can be a bit of a ditz. A hopeless for happily ever afters, she unhesitatingly ships others. Anything that moves around and is alive is alright, in her book. Unless it is hurt or ugly. In comparison to herself, most things are. Tess is hard pressed to fight. She can be easily baited, however, if someone pushes the right buttons. Stomping on her dreams, acting like royalty, or hurting kittens is a good way to persuade her to initiate combat. She will kill if she believes an enemy is suffering, thinking it is the best decision. Tess likes it when things are equal, but does not mind sacrificing some freedoms. Though she does not like to be ordered by monarchs, she will be constrained so long as everyone is happier for it in her eyes. She is not a stubborn person by default, except when it comes to certain points. Mostly, Tess lives without looking back, and she rarely doubts herself, even if she can be unsure of what she is doing. Insecurity is word foreign to her vocabulary. In battle, she can be a force to be reckoned with.
Despite her lack of stubbornness with most things in life, she can definitely give it her all when fighting, especially if she considers it her final decision. Combat could be called her last resort, if not for how she can immediately jump to killing someone from seeing them trip and skin their knee. One can often get away with giving her a reason to fight by saying it will make them happy. Depending on her mood, she will try to assist them however she is able. Tess is not really leader material due to her lack of enthusiasm or willpower except for in small bursts or concerning very specific personal ideals. If she were forced into a position of leadership, she might be able to manage, but would probably misjudge certain aspects. Her preference would be to either ensure any combatants involved are killed instantly without a chance to suffer. To note, if anyone comes back to her injured, it is like asking to be killed and "put out of their misery". Under a leader, Tess is willing to do pretty much whatever her orders request, unless she believes it is unjust or will hurt someone. In conclusion, Tess would like to stay out of fighting as much as possible. She rarely initiates a duel If she causes harm to a person, they could suffer at her hands, which would wrack her consciousness with guilt.
Likes:
❅ Kittens: Tess likes any cute, cuddly, or furry things. Kittens are among the cutest. Anyone who deliberately tortures a kitten is subject to the harshest judgements. Pain as a punishment is never encourageable, but in this case, it is a close call. If she were to ever compromise her beliefs and deem suffering acceptable, the scenario would involve kittens treated cruelly.
❅ Flowers: Especially the blue or white ones, but also any color or pattern. They brighten up any room. An exception is dead or withered plant life of any kind. Tess cannot stand to see hopelessly wilted blossoms desparately watered with the hope of revival. Once a bloom is dead, it must be culled for the sake of all.
❅ Blood: She falls in love with certain peoples' blood, and the tastes and uses of the substance. Naturally, some varieties are rarer than others. Tess is more interested in qualities individual to a creature's ichor, rather than the scientific factors such as letter type. Truly an indulgence, her strong adoration for blood is not necessarily a point of pride.
Dislikes:
❅ Condescension: Tess hates signs of superiority. Even if she dresses like a princess, she is not any better than anyone else. Holding herself to the highest standard does not mean she exists on a greater level. Humans, or any sentient beings that act with an enormous ego, ought to learn their place—equal to everyone else.
❅ Pain: "No more tears or pain. Only dreams now." Tess has an abnormally high threshold for pain, but she doesn't want anyone else to suffer. The moment she hears a mutter of, "Ow!" she would have a teleport prepared and be at the speaker's side. Armed with her intense desire to relieve discomfort in any form, including mental, she is committed to dulling the agony of life.
❅ Fire: Burns are among the most painful wounds someone can receive. Flames are generally too uncontrollable, even if they are beautiful. Moreover, as a natural counter to frosty natures, heat can melt even the coldest ice.
Motivations:
❅ Utopia: Tess searches for a perfect world where there is no pain or suffering. It does not matter if they are drugged or their brains are altered, so long as they are safe and well. Happiness is only an illusion, after all: delicate and changeable within a split second. Comparatively, a superior existence would have no downs—nor ups, necessarily—in exchange for a steady contentment.
❅ Friendship: She does not want close friends, but instead to be friends with many people and always support them, making sure they are never unhappy or in pain. By forming relationships, Tess also hopes to establish connections to further her goals. There is strength in numbers. A band of individuals who would like to accomplish the same feats as herself would be helpful and pleasant.
❅ Beauty: There is no shame in being honest with herself. Tess craves aesthetics. While she does her best to not judge by exterior appearances, she is, to a certain extent, a shallow person. What she initially interprets is usually her final opinion. Broken dolls are broken and must be repaired—cleaned up to not only be fit for the world but so that they may find dignity in themselves.
Fears:
❅ Failure: No matter what she says, it is not possible to always exist in a state of pure happiness. She fears failing in her goals. Acknowledging that she is not perfect, Tess would hate for her flaws to tamper with her success.
❅ Sadism: Surprisingly self-aware, Tess is afraid of ever being the cause of suffering and letting her sadist tendencies take over. Realistically, she is aware of how much killing and injury she causes on a regular basis. Equally, she feels pride and satisfaction from completing her goals. However, she is terrified of one day extracting more gratification from the act rather than the result.
❅ Love: The world would be better without it. So much sorrow happens on account of love. She fears one day hurting someone who loves her, or falling for someone and being harmed. In itself, love is not a frightening concept, but in practice, too much passion on account of love can do great damage.
General Appearance
Height: 164 cm or 5'4" 1/2
Weight: 53 kg or 117 lbs.
Hair Color: White and blue
Eye Color: Purple
Skin Tone: Light, pale
Blood Type: B-
Appearance: Click for Visual
Guild: Fairy Tail
Tattoo: Right foot
Tattoo Color: Powder blue
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