Name: Eris Lacuna
Gender: Female
Age: 20
Birthday: 05/16
Sexuality: Bisexual (However, she chooses to portray herself as Asexual to others.)
Special Characteristics: N/A
Personality: Eris is best described as a quiet girl. She's quite dutiful and diligence in her approach to just about everything, but she's not much of a talker. You're more likely to find her nestled away from others, reading a book or just studying. Eris is someone who struggles to interact with others and, more importantly, form connections. Friends aren't something that Eris has, but they're also not something that she stresses over. She's grown used to solitude and being alone - having never really fit in. Despite this, however, she is still capable of displaying a remarkable aptitude for following orders and working alongside others. It's not that she's anti-social, but rather she's merely awkward. At times, she'll even find herself dealing with notable anxiety depending on the type of individual she has to deal with.
Eris's biggest flaw is her intrinsic lack of true confidence in herself, as well as a need to prove herself to others no matter the cost. This can typically lead to her putting herself into needless danger or harm's way because she wants to prove she deserves to be a Rune Knight, and she wants to be successful and gain the respect of her peers. While she does desire the validation of others, in all truth she's only trying to prove her own worth to herself. Despite the world she lives in, she feels as though she simply doesn't fit in. She's an abnormal aberration who doesn't belong, if only because she's so painfully close - in her own mind - to being normal. This leads her to be extremely self-conscious about herself, which typically encourages and reinforces her anti-social behavior.
Despite these clear flaws, and her relative lack of confidence in herself, she always manages to keep a clear and level head in combat. It's quite surprising how well she can handle herself, remaining attentive and never truly letting her rampant emotions get the best of her. Anyone can see clear as day that she's an excellent fighter and Rune Knight, but her own self-defeatist nature hampers her own progress and growth as a Rune Knight.
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Motivations:
Fears:
General Appearance
Height: 6'1"
Weight: 158 lbs.
Hair: Blonde-White
Eyes: Silver
Skin Tone: Tan
Appearance:
Guild: Rune Knight
Tattoo: Crimson Color, Left side of neck.
Gender: Female
Age: 20
Birthday: 05/16
Sexuality: Bisexual (However, she chooses to portray herself as Asexual to others.)
Special Characteristics: N/A
Personality: Eris is best described as a quiet girl. She's quite dutiful and diligence in her approach to just about everything, but she's not much of a talker. You're more likely to find her nestled away from others, reading a book or just studying. Eris is someone who struggles to interact with others and, more importantly, form connections. Friends aren't something that Eris has, but they're also not something that she stresses over. She's grown used to solitude and being alone - having never really fit in. Despite this, however, she is still capable of displaying a remarkable aptitude for following orders and working alongside others. It's not that she's anti-social, but rather she's merely awkward. At times, she'll even find herself dealing with notable anxiety depending on the type of individual she has to deal with.
Eris's biggest flaw is her intrinsic lack of true confidence in herself, as well as a need to prove herself to others no matter the cost. This can typically lead to her putting herself into needless danger or harm's way because she wants to prove she deserves to be a Rune Knight, and she wants to be successful and gain the respect of her peers. While she does desire the validation of others, in all truth she's only trying to prove her own worth to herself. Despite the world she lives in, she feels as though she simply doesn't fit in. She's an abnormal aberration who doesn't belong, if only because she's so painfully close - in her own mind - to being normal. This leads her to be extremely self-conscious about herself, which typically encourages and reinforces her anti-social behavior.
Despite these clear flaws, and her relative lack of confidence in herself, she always manages to keep a clear and level head in combat. It's quite surprising how well she can handle herself, remaining attentive and never truly letting her rampant emotions get the best of her. Anyone can see clear as day that she's an excellent fighter and Rune Knight, but her own self-defeatist nature hampers her own progress and growth as a Rune Knight.
- Ageusia - Eris lacks the ability to properly taste food and drink. To her, it's all a bit 'bland' or outright tasteless.
- Body Dysmorphia - A large portion of her mental flaws revolve around her own perception of herself. She takes issue with her height, weight and hair color -- all things she wishes she could change but can't, as she feels that any attempt to do so would merely highlight and reveal her insecurities. In addition to this, despite appearances, Eris isn't biologically female. Due to everything that occurred while her mother was pregnant, the rampant magic had an unintended side effect on her then still developing body, it'd be more correct to specify her as Intersex due to the fact she has fully functioning male genitalia, though she identifies as female. This is an aspect of herself that she takes great issue with, the root of her self-loathing, to some regard. It's a part of her that she struggles to accept and expects no one else to expect - instead shunning her as 'a freak' due to her childhood. As such, she'll notably go out of her way to avoid share female showers and other such things, as she simply feels as though she doesn't belong in such a space and would rather not have herself exposed in such a manner.
Likes:
- Literature - Be it trashy novels or magic tomes meant to expand the mind, if Eris can read it then she probably loves it.
- Sightseeing - A key part of Eris's job that she enjoys. Being able to travel the region and see new and interesting places makes her happy and she loves seeing just how beautiful the world is.
- Improvement - Eris likes to try to improve herself however she can, so training is something she deeply enjoys. Be it exercising, training or even receiving lectures -- if it's something she can benefit from in the long run, then she'll never shun it as she wants nothing more than to be 'better'.
Dislikes:
- Food - Due to her Ageusia, Eris doesn't like food. Or it'd be more apt to say, she dislikes having to eat because she derives little to no pleasure or joy from it.
- Cold - The cold weather is something that she tends to avoid, having spent a majority of her life in warm and humid climates. When it starts getting cold, you'll typically find Eris being extremely tired and demotivated. When forced to go on missions where it's cold -- you can discover a new side of Eris: one that is, simply put, bitchy.
- Fancy Things - To put it simply, Eris doesn't like things that are expensive or 'fancy' if only because its ingrained into her mind that she doesn't 'deserve' them. Both by her previous 'guardian' and her own mentality. As such, she can come off as frugal or 'humble' because she'll typically avoid things that are fancy or flashy.
Motivations:
- Acceptance - Eris desires the acceptance of not only others, but herself as well. This ranges from who she is as a person, to her body itself. She desires nothing more than to happily own up to who she is and live a life of pride, even if the thought of it scares her at times.
- Respect - Eris wants the respect of her peers. Not to feed her ego, but rather her self-esteem. She doesn't just want others to respect her, but she wants to put in the time and effort to earn their respect. She wants those around her to be proud to say they know her.
- Happiness - While quite simple, Eris wants to make the world a better and happier place however she can. It's why she became a Rune Knight; protecting people, saving lives and bringing criminals to justice helps serve as the fuel to her fire, as it gives her the motivation to keep going, knowing she's doing some good in the world.
Fears:
- Failure - While not uncommon, Eris is afraid of failing. Of letting not only herself down, but her fellow Rune Knights and the innocents of the world down. If someone was to die while she was around, either fighting alongside them or if she had been charged with protecting them, then she would take it to heart. She wants nothing more than to make the world a better place, so failing to do so is a gut-wrenching concept for her.
- Exposure - Due to her own issues with her self-image, she's quite terrified of ever having her body exposed unwillingly. Even if someone was to merely glance at her while she was in the middle of dressing or bathing, even unintentionally, she'd become extremely upset and terrified -- almost bordering on suffering a panic attack.
- Shun - An extension of her previous fear, Eris would hate to have her body exposed and its abnormalities, and then be shunned because of it. In her mind she's extremely abnormal and no one would ever accept her because of this, and being excommunicated or avoided by her peers because 'she's a freak' is a genuine fear for her, and part of the reason she tries to keep to herself.
General Appearance
Height: 6'1"
Weight: 158 lbs.
Hair: Blonde-White
Eyes: Silver
Skin Tone: Tan
Appearance:
- Eris Lacuna:
Guild: Rune Knight
Tattoo: Crimson Color, Left side of neck.
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