I Don't Know How to Say it...

So, tonight was something that needed to be brought up. I was smacked hard with a realization that I needed to be hit with a long time ago and with it has brought me to a point that I have to get to. Over the last year or so, I've been attempting to do a great number of things to try and better my activity both as a member and a GM... and honestly I fucking suck at it. I've put more into alts and other things than I have my own guild and for that I want to apologize.

However, I have to come out and say that I need to take an overall break from the site. I've been moving on and off of muse and activity and I'm distraught and beside myself overall right now. I'm incredibly upset to even be typing this, but I feel that if I don't then I'll only end up ruining more peoples patience, respect, and trust in/with me than what may already be left. So, as of tonight I'm stepping down from LS, my alts ace and mafia position, and I'm going to be stepping away from the site for a while. I don't know if it'll be for a long time or for short period, but I guess I'll find out with time.

Again, I want to apologize to all of Lamia Scale, CS for a fall out of the plot by this event I had REALLY wanted to do, but I can't do it anymore, I truly can't. I haven't stopped crying through this whole thing because I'm both letting down people and myself.

So, for a while, take care everyone. I can be reached through Discord for anyone that still wants to keep up with me.

Bun listen to me, you are not letting us down okay <3 You came forward and told us, I'm not gonna get angry or mad about something online when you need to focus on you and real life okay. Ls and Cs will sort itself out, plots will smooth out so don't get wound up about it because we care more about you.

Take some time, hopefully it helps and you can get back to being your bouncy self ♡ If you ever need to or just want to chat with me send me a message on discord, I don't care if I haven't spoken to you in six months, we'll be here

Look after yourself ♡

Be you, Gisen. Never look back, and only look forward. Have a great life, and never be sorry for your path. Just walk it.
Lilim.

Hebisha will squeeze you like never before. Sure it may kill you, but you still take it like a champ you bunny. Everything stays, but it still changes. Keep getting stronger. Cry now then later. Thanks for being the best GM when you took lead.

o.o I should really look at the intro board more often...

We don't really know each other, but I wanted to say I feel your pain. It sounds like you had a ton of responsibility on here, when you stack that on top of real life and mix in the fact that you are emotionally invested in the site things can really start to hurt (I feel the same way sometimes). I think it was brave of you to say how you feel and even braver (and smart) to take a step back and make the decision to take a break.

I wish ya good luck, happiness, and if you feel like it; come back when/if you're ready and we can all sit down for dinner again some day ~<3