I Need Time

So some people were already aware, this last roughly two week's my grandfather has not been well and the last week he's been in the hospital preparing for heart surgery as it had become his only choice besides an incredibly painful death in the next month at most. The surgery was set for Monday as some know, and while it started on time, it didn't go as planned, they tried every way they could, but in the end he's ended up in a medically induced coma and no one can even tell us for sure 'what' is going on, just that they think he's there, but many of them also think he's not coming back. It's not alright, and I'm far from alright.

My activity is going to suck, it's going to spite, it's going to fall, my brain won't be on right, I won't talk to everyone like I normally do because I can't entirely trust myself not to go off. Obviously like always I'll try to return to normal as quickly as possible, but I can't return to the old normal, not without him, so this 'hiatus', 'adjustment' and such won't be as smooth as the rest. I'm still going to try my best to roleplay here, to perform as a head mod and on the dev, but if I don't respond to someone, or I don't post often, or I do less work then normal, or heck even if I 'binge' on everything. This is why. I'm not leaving, but I can't be how I normally am.

And I'm sorry if this notice makes little sense, I'll likely end up giving someone permission to clarify it later, but I had to try to make one myself first.

Real life first Kitteh, we're all here for you. Take the time needed.

Take any time you need, and I do hope there won't be any further complications with your grandfather and he wakes up soon. Just know we are here for you.

Take all the time you need and I hope for the best. Stay strong!

Take your time plus more if you need it. I know how it feels for something like that to happen and I know you never really get back to it being the same after. I'm sorry to hear about this and I'm here if you need to vent as I usually am there for. Take care.

The day after I posted this, he passed, the service is on Wednesday so I'll try to come back and grade a thing or make a post within the few days after that.

Take all the time you need kitty, I know how hard it is first hand dealing with loss and trying to do things when clearly not ready to deal with. Know we love you and will be here for you if you need us for a hug or just a chat.

Considering how much I talked with my grandfather about both the original Jiyu and the one I play now, I don't believe I can play her at the present moment, so this account is being 'frozen' one day I will come back to playing her but for now my mod power's are being changed to Fluffy's account and she will be my main.

As I want to start slowly returning this coming week, but can't manage to write a character I talked about and worked with my grandfather on.

Which is why it's fluffy I'm changing to, because since she's a villain and very witchy, supernatural based, I could never talk about her with him XD

No need to explain Kitty, go where your heart takes you and when you've healed enough you can continue playing her in fondness once more in cherished memory of your grandfather.

Got everything switched to this account <3

and I think for the moment I'll just be returning on this account, so Itova will still be on hiatus for the moment too, see how I do running on staff work, dev work, playing nyx and other misc stuff.