hey. yeah. in short: sorry...
these past few days have been painful for me to say the least. i'd rather not indicate why, but i just don't have my usual muse anymore. i've probably been over it so many times, short threads and short notices and me trying to patch myself to hopefully enjoy this site again, just like i did when i first started.
but...it's not working. i'm trying to, but my shortcomings just stop me far too much.
...no, i'm not quitting, yet. i've decided to go on a break. perhaps a long one. several months to move on from everything that has happened. from life. from the site. from some people here.
i'm not blaming anyone, i just really need to forget things.
feel free to cancel any jobs you have with terith and with edith, as well as some future plans that we may have talked about in the past. if you can wait, then...i'm glad...but if you can't, then that's fine too.
i don't know how long i'll take. weeks, months, you might be surprised, i might just decide never to come back, but i hope it doesn't come to that. i trust my heart that it won't allow me to throw away what little preciousness i've found here.
thanks, you all. this community has seen so much in these past few months. though that's not much coming from me who doesn't really seem to be there. but anywho, take care all you lovely people. let's all pull through.
see ya!
these past few days have been painful for me to say the least. i'd rather not indicate why, but i just don't have my usual muse anymore. i've probably been over it so many times, short threads and short notices and me trying to patch myself to hopefully enjoy this site again, just like i did when i first started.
but...it's not working. i'm trying to, but my shortcomings just stop me far too much.
...no, i'm not quitting, yet. i've decided to go on a break. perhaps a long one. several months to move on from everything that has happened. from life. from the site. from some people here.
i'm not blaming anyone, i just really need to forget things.
feel free to cancel any jobs you have with terith and with edith, as well as some future plans that we may have talked about in the past. if you can wait, then...i'm glad...but if you can't, then that's fine too.
i don't know how long i'll take. weeks, months, you might be surprised, i might just decide never to come back, but i hope it doesn't come to that. i trust my heart that it won't allow me to throw away what little preciousness i've found here.
- for sal:
- heyya sal. i've messaged you about this before, but it seems i can't really uphold my ship with you like this. you're a very sweet girl, but my activity doesn't match your's and it could probably drag your plot downward. i don't know when i'll come back, but if you find someone better for summer, be my guest. she's a lovely girl, she'll fit in with anyone you so desire.
- for hero:
- i gave you my word and reserved one character for the plans we had,
but my life is a mess...you don't need that sort of thing. you're ought to talk to more active people...you know? i find it amazing how you're still patient with me. if you can't handle my dilly-dallying, then you can cancel our job...don't worry, in the event that i come back,
i might have the same enthusiasm i had when i first started talking to you.
- for julee:
- you've achieved so much all these months, and for that i'm actually happy for you. though i'm disappointed in myself that i couldn't fulfill the stuff we talked about.
gotta admit, meeting you and being a part of that one little crazy skype group was one of the things that made me the most happy. stay how you are. hell, you might reach h-rank by the time i get back. with your pace, you might take only a few months, right? yeah, believe it.
take care ^^.
- for sword bruh:
mura. yeah. i have that gif you sent me in a special place and i still laugh when i see it. you were always so..idk...level-headed? though you were the most innocent out of all us, sorta, i think you handled all the salt better than anyone. thanks for being there. we might've started at a very random note, looking for a bikini like that, but i'm still surprised we got to know each other well. i'm not saying goodbye, i think...but when i come back, i'll do my best to catch up to whatever rank you are.sowecanfite
- for the banana:
running a guild! that's gotta be some stuff. well, props to you, you're asian, and i know you can do iti'mnotbeingracist. just kidding. you're you and you're pretty amazing and you've come this far. i wonder just how much FT would achieve in my absence...i might actually join it when i get back...haha....assuming i will, but hey, let's be positive, right?
- for vindy:
i'm so sorry....i'm so so sorry....everything 'ended' so abruptly and i've never felt so much regret...please, i hope you forgive me for not saying anything in so long. i didn't know how to approach you, i was scared you'd shove me away. please, if you're reading this, i hope you forgive me...i still care about you.
- for ai:
wait for me.
thanks, you all. this community has seen so much in these past few months. though that's not much coming from me who doesn't really seem to be there. but anywho, take care all you lovely people. let's all pull through.
see ya!