After some careful consideration and support from my boys, I decided that I absolutely had to do this. You know what, fuck it.
I've had it with trying to be eloquent. Because even if I were talking "properly" in this post, some of you would look at this and still view me as a fucking scumbag. So I'm not taking that shit anymore. Here's a couple of warning notes:
1. I'm not giving any of you the satisfaction of knowing who the fuck you are. If you would get your thumbs out of your asses and do some soul searching, you'd find out real quick.
2. Anybody who's even entertaining the thought of trying to pawn my stuff off of me, fuck you, I'm not giving it to anyone. You greedy pieces of shit are just one of the reasons why I'm leaving this snakepit of a site.
3. If you have a problem with anything that I'm about to say, you motherfucking bitch-ass motherfuckers, fuck you. Close the damn tab and look somewhere the fuck else, you pacifier-sucking pussies.
It was March 3, 2014. I was a young upstart on the site, by the name of Nikolai Dixon. The community was welcoming, staff were willing to help you with anything, you name it. I expected myself to stay up most nights having talks with some of the people in the chatbox, or writing up posts for my friends. I knew that I was going to have the best time of my life here, and was going to stay here for years to come.
That was before I realized how truly toxic this forum is.
There's a huge difference between the Shunsuke/Nikolai/Kenpachi back then, and the me now: Now I know shit when I look at it. I kept telling myself that the goddamn site would get better, that I would have as much fun as I used to back then.
That was false hope and I knew it. I was getting so disgusted with the site that my activity had waned to the point where I was a fucking chatbox lurker, saying that I was going to do this-and-that, knowing full well that I wasn't.
I curse myself for lying to myself all those days and nights. I also curse this site for giving me the false hope that things would get better.
Let's think about how every event on this site turns into a conduit for the glory hounds to make themselves look good when the lower-ranked are left with lightweight work.
Let's think about how when something doesn't go their way, some people bitch and it eventually changes in their favour.
Let's think about how shoddy the PVP system is, to the point where some people refuse to do it.
Let's think about how some people have to avoid certain characters in RPs because they don't want to suffer being skinned alive by some douchebag who only cares about advancing himself.
Let's think about how there's a particular guild whose guildmaster bribes his members into winning the scoreboard, and only runs the guild to advance his own plot.
Let's think about how there are certain members and staff who deserve to be banned, but aren't/weren't because the mods are niggas with them.
Let's think about how the staff is going to sweep this under the rug, as they do everything else, to maintain their saint status.
I absolutely guarantee that when some of you read this, you're going to go up into the chatbox and talk shit about how much of a shithead I am, and how I'm whining that shit didn't go my way. You people who think and do that are prime fucking examples of bitch-made motherfuckers who only know how to talk shit on the internet, and I'm frankly disgusted.
There's a minority on the site who knows exactly what I'm talking about. In spite of what I said, there's a handful of motherfuckers who can read this post and agree with most or all of what I've said.
Honestly, why do I even bother to write up this fucking post? I'm just another thread in your long-ass shit of Intros/Farewells. And I guarantee that staff will sweep this under the rug when they see this. Since that's all they really know how to do.
I would tell you what you can do to fix the site up, but I'm honestly beyond the point of thinking this site will change.
There are hypocrites and scumbags on this forum, and I feel sorry for you motherfuckers who are too blind to realize that.
A great big old fuck you to you. You people can hoenstly go die in a plane accident for all I give a shit, because I've had it with trying to change myself to conform to your warped worldview of what members should be.
So anyways, goodbye, cheerio, sayonara, whatever. Thanks for the fucking Slayer position.
I've had it with trying to be eloquent. Because even if I were talking "properly" in this post, some of you would look at this and still view me as a fucking scumbag. So I'm not taking that shit anymore. Here's a couple of warning notes:
1. I'm not giving any of you the satisfaction of knowing who the fuck you are. If you would get your thumbs out of your asses and do some soul searching, you'd find out real quick.
2. Anybody who's even entertaining the thought of trying to pawn my stuff off of me, fuck you, I'm not giving it to anyone. You greedy pieces of shit are just one of the reasons why I'm leaving this snakepit of a site.
3. If you have a problem with anything that I'm about to say, you motherfucking bitch-ass motherfuckers, fuck you. Close the damn tab and look somewhere the fuck else, you pacifier-sucking pussies.
It was March 3, 2014. I was a young upstart on the site, by the name of Nikolai Dixon. The community was welcoming, staff were willing to help you with anything, you name it. I expected myself to stay up most nights having talks with some of the people in the chatbox, or writing up posts for my friends. I knew that I was going to have the best time of my life here, and was going to stay here for years to come.
That was before I realized how truly toxic this forum is.
There's a huge difference between the Shunsuke/Nikolai/Kenpachi back then, and the me now: Now I know shit when I look at it. I kept telling myself that the goddamn site would get better, that I would have as much fun as I used to back then.
That was false hope and I knew it. I was getting so disgusted with the site that my activity had waned to the point where I was a fucking chatbox lurker, saying that I was going to do this-and-that, knowing full well that I wasn't.
I curse myself for lying to myself all those days and nights. I also curse this site for giving me the false hope that things would get better.
Let's think about how every event on this site turns into a conduit for the glory hounds to make themselves look good when the lower-ranked are left with lightweight work.
Let's think about how when something doesn't go their way, some people bitch and it eventually changes in their favour.
Let's think about how shoddy the PVP system is, to the point where some people refuse to do it.
Let's think about how some people have to avoid certain characters in RPs because they don't want to suffer being skinned alive by some douchebag who only cares about advancing himself.
Let's think about how there's a particular guild whose guildmaster bribes his members into winning the scoreboard, and only runs the guild to advance his own plot.
Let's think about how there are certain members and staff who deserve to be banned, but aren't/weren't because the mods are niggas with them.
Let's think about how the staff is going to sweep this under the rug, as they do everything else, to maintain their saint status.
I absolutely guarantee that when some of you read this, you're going to go up into the chatbox and talk shit about how much of a shithead I am, and how I'm whining that shit didn't go my way. You people who think and do that are prime fucking examples of bitch-made motherfuckers who only know how to talk shit on the internet, and I'm frankly disgusted.
There's a minority on the site who knows exactly what I'm talking about. In spite of what I said, there's a handful of motherfuckers who can read this post and agree with most or all of what I've said.
Honestly, why do I even bother to write up this fucking post? I'm just another thread in your long-ass shit of Intros/Farewells. And I guarantee that staff will sweep this under the rug when they see this. Since that's all they really know how to do.
I would tell you what you can do to fix the site up, but I'm honestly beyond the point of thinking this site will change.
There are hypocrites and scumbags on this forum, and I feel sorry for you motherfuckers who are too blind to realize that.
A great big old fuck you to you. You people can hoenstly go die in a plane accident for all I give a shit, because I've had it with trying to change myself to conform to your warped worldview of what members should be.
So anyways, goodbye, cheerio, sayonara, whatever. Thanks for the fucking Slayer position.