by Guest 24th November 2015, 7:43 pm
Ignorance was bliss. That was how the saying went, as it proved to be quite true for everybody, no matter who or what they were. Be they gods, demons, humans, or others, it was one of the few lines that all could agree on. Those three words in that true statement, however, were not completely true for some- the most ignorant of them all. The situation at hand made her wish that she could still be in that category; that of the ignorant. Her guildmates were completely ignorant of what had really happened. Backed up against a wall in an empty hall in the dead of night in the guildhall, Izayuki stood with her arms crossed, gazing steadily at the floor while deep in thought.
She had been unable to sleep the last few nights, and with good reason. The terrors of the night that stirred her dreams were nothing she felt like experiencing after what had happened recently. When she did sleep, it was in light dozes that were not deep or heavy enough to force her into another rush of fear and despair. If she did start to fall slowly into that, instinct jolted her awake, and once again she would hold off on sleep for what was above a substantial amount of time. Frowning as she thought of it, having not slept in a while and too afraid to head to her own room and bed now, fingers reached up for the three-point-crown shaped charm on a thin but strong chain; a simple necklace. Izayuki now understood its use- it was quite fair in a way, but she would never ‘stoop’ to actually activating it. She at least had either the pride or stupidity to linger in her grief and still feel what she could and know her fear rather than to dismiss it so easily and walk forward, blind.
To them, Elyx had simply vanished- gone missing, so to say. She knew better, and yet, how was she to tell them their Ace of Leaves had died? How could she, without potentially breaking down herself and revealing more than what was preferred of truth about herself? Why should she care so much? She had only joined the guild to hide and to find protection. What difference did any of it make? Unfortunately, now, it made all the difference. Ever since she had run into the twins, Alie, Ariel, and Elyx, had joined her team, Kvasir, found her dear little imouto-chan, Azalea, again, and had made so many friends… how could she just take the guild for granted? Why did she have to keep everyone in the dark about everything? To care about it all… it really was annoying. Humanity and emotions could be so cruel and irritating; it was times like these where Izayuki wanted her bare instincts back, and nothing more.
Sighing and continuing to fight back tears and further despair, knowing she would have to present the news at some point before becoming a bystander became a thing of further guilt, Izayuki was almost startled as she heard noise from a few rooms down the hall. She was too scared to fall asleep lest she experience worst of what she had experienced before, but at least she could aim for something productive. Maybe it was time she stopped burdening her secrets by herself. But then again, the last time she had attempted to trust…. It had only placed on her more guilt. Nevertheless, she knew she had to try.
Knowing the noise was undeniably from Kakuma’s office and room, Iza began moving towards that room, easily eyeing Lexa and then Irina in the doorway. Great. A crowd. Just what was needed, right? She could have come at a later time to get the guildmaster alone for her news, but why deny her other two guildmates news that could possibly directly affect them as well? The real struggle would be holding back her emotion and trying to maintain her human form if sadness and grief at saying the ordeal aloud decided to overwhelm her. Either way, her guild was in no position to be subject to the ignorance of Elyx’s demise. Going ahead and walking toward the office-bedroom and her late-night-gathered guildmates, the young mage decided to at least try to be casual at first. Breaking the news right away would not be a good idea in any case or regard. Hearing the beginnings of conversation, Izayuki decided to be silent for once and just make her presence known by walking up, a curious expression on her face as she listened in for a few seconds before speaking. ”Sorry if I’m interrupting something…” she trailed off, slightly embarrassed, which was rare for her and unlike her usual shameless behavior. She had important news though, which was more than a good-enough excuse. Still, she dared not meet anyone's eyes just yet. Luckily, curiosity only killed the cat, not the tanuki. "Er, hi."