So long

So long and thanks for all the slaps in the face. Just so you know due to the 42 stitches in my wrists, i have been drafting this out on and off for a long time. So here are a couple things before continuing this.

1. Yes I'm leaving so all you folks out there going woohoo the bitch is gone. You will be addressed later.

2. Sorry to those I'm in a job with. It's not your fault.

3. This site has more immature adults here who feed off of the tween and teenage puberty here than the ones who want to actually role play in the a Fairy Tail environment. This site has more people here who create a lore with cannon magic when it doesn't have anything to do with it. I refuse to be associated with it nor will I help any of you with your irl situations again.

4. No, no one may have my jewels, items, and what not. I want everything kyll related to fucking disappear. Fuck you.

When I first came here, the community was warm, welcoming, and a party in the cbox and skype groups every night. I would stay up late every night just to hang with some close friends and keep our campaigns rolling. Now, everyone is so focused on rank and being the most OP I can't stand it anymore. I know I left the first time on a rather sour note, but now it's more bitter than ever. What happened to actually rping? You know what the issue was? The fact that people would promise each other epic story lines, but never follow through with them. The fact that children didn't understand that they had actual lives outside of a fucking forum. The issue was never the numbers. It was the people. It changed to fan fiction over role play. Fuck that. I'm through. I'm so through with the members who bribe other members with promises to be more "powerful" over actual role play and story. I'm so through with people bitching and complaining that they are being "invaded" when they could use this whole thing as a bigger part to their story. I'm so through with you all who sit there and not see the bigger fucking picture to your own stories over everyone else's. Fuck you. Fuck all of you who don't like to think how your character will react. Screw you all who don't want to bend and deal with actual consequences for your stupidity good or bad.

Heero: get this through that thick, fat, and absolutely stupid skull of yours. I hate you. I did so much for you. Defended you. Kept your magic from being checked even though you, yourself, approved it on your own. You have no clue how many complaints I got because you would leave with out notice for weeks and fall off the active list. Only to come back and expect to be placed on your pedestal. You are the biggest jackass I have ever seen in my entire life. You were the one that put the basis down for pvp to begin with for your half wit incomplete duel system. Yet over Christmas you decided to take it all on and say "no pvp in my magic." What the fuck. I mean seriously. YOU CREATED PVP JACKASS. Your events and plot lines were half thought up and incomplete every time. You "friend" are the worst person here to scream about how there is no favoritism, when there clearly is something wrong with you leaving for six months and coming back still as a wizard saint and a dragon slayer. I hope you take in everything I say here and actually UNDERSTAND how bad a friend you have been to me. You're not a friend. You a fuck boy, but guess what. You fucking win. The bitch is gone.

Zack: you're just as bad as heero. You're so egotistical about the rules and when they don't go your way or it makes your characters weaker, you take a softer approach. "I feel spells should have less weaknesses." Bullshit. Get the fuck over yourself. But guess what. You fucking win. The bitch is gone.

Sumdumguy: get the fuck off this board and get laid, drunk, or high. You need some normal teenage criminal acts over that angst you have. All that shit that you claim is "my fault" you did that to yourself. Guess what. The bitch is gone. You fucking win.

Alex: I love you, but I'm tired of seeing your stupid self making that pet shop for you. When I left skype es chat, don't think I didn't leave without putting akryn as the master of the chat. You said it. It's not right to put a board above your friends. Guess what you're doing. Guess what that does to my personal views of you, Katherine Wickfield. I can not view you as the same person anymore. The bitch is gone now. Get your pet shop of cronies. You fucking win.

Chaotic: just because things don't go your way and work better for the bigger picture you just started giving a rats ass? That's so lame and stupid. How the hell are you going to make it in the army with that attitude? And the Israeli army at that too. Gods I wish you the best in that. The bitch is gone now. You fucking win.

Indar: grow up. Gods all you do is complain to me or stuff you never understood. Why do you think I blocked you on skype? Oh yeah you're a fucking winner too. Why? Because the bitch is gone.

That's right guys. I'm burning my bridges now. Why? Because the bitch is gone and you guys have no fucking clue how to surrender and actually role play the shit your put your characters in. The consequences you get for doing stupid crap in your stories. I'm leaving because the majority of you all suck. That little minority? They aren't even active enough to get shit rolling. See... It's always the ones who have a busy life that can bring in quality. Why bother? Why the fuck do I even care about this message getting out to you all? I'm just another fucking farewell topic in your long list of intros and farewells. That's right ladies and gentlemen, tip your fucking hats to me because apparently by posting this up it makes me a fucking asshat too. You all want to see the real me? Well fuck, here it is. A pissed off person who sees no more potential in this site. Someone who sees this site as tiny fucking island in the middle if the internet ocean. If you all want to actually get some quality out of this site that I helped take care of for so long, put your egos aside and like... Do shit. Stop being so stuck on getting h rank. And for those who already have the rank. Get the fuck over yourself and do some character development. Help some people out. I mean shit. You're all stupid for thinking you're better than someone just because you spent money on a site that is precoded and weapons that are premade or stupid minute shit on here. For fucks sake shut up.

Seijin, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for what you did for me. You are not the cause. Don't blame yourself, but do yourself a favor and look at those on your staff that do nothing but suck your dick. It's sickening. I spent so many days and swing shifts on this site it's not funny. When I helped out with your 100 floor dungeon, I would spend two to three days straight on my computer. Sometimes I went with out a shower for three days I was so sucked in. You have some great people here, but you have some people who deserve to be fucking banned with all the shit they do, yet you still side with what creates less drama. Which is so wrong. It's called people pleasing. Yeah I made some stupid calls too, but at least I got shit done.

FAREWELL BITCHES *drops mic*

Well, to say I didn't expect this would be... a lie o-o I don't want to stroke myself when I say that I totally saw this coming. I don't have any evidence for it because I never called it, but I saw it coming. Not from a mile away, but from 15 meters away like a startled deer in the middle of the night only seeing the headlights right before the neck cracks.

Guess things that you wanted to say had to be said, otherwise you wouldn't have made this topic. I'd recommend for staff NOT to take this down because they fear that it could cause drama. Honestly, anyone who sees this topic as a reason to go ahead and blast all of the issues Kyll addressed into anyone's face is exactly one of the fuckboys she was trying to belittle.

So to anyone who reads Kyll's topic and then has decided to read my response, please don't take her post as what it is. It's an expression of a lot of frustration and pent up feelings regarding a many things and people of the site. What she said has substance, but the substance doesn't lie in shouting all problems into the nothingness that is the farewell/intro board, use the word fuck as often as possible and then drop the mic and leave.

To you Kyll, it really sucks to see you go :/ I could go ahead and do the standard "You were SUCH an awesome friend and SUCH an awesome rp'er" and QQ all the way to Iraq, but honestly, I've seen better rp'ers than me and you, and calling us "friends" seems like a stretch. More like... tolerable acquaintances. You and me are entirely different people. It's not just age that seperates us, but our past, present, ideals, motivations and dreams that make us two completely seperate humans. And it is kind of exactly that reason I hate to see you go. You invested your life so much into the site that yeah, it sometimes got annoying, but it was sure as hell a lot more sheltering than the atmosphere that goes around the community these days. I can call myself quite lucky that I currently have found a preeeeetty cool group of people to build up a narrative with. I hope it sticks, and with the people so far, it seems like it will.

Your anger and frustration are all justified, and I think it's rightful that everyone is able to see it here on screen and on board. That this thing will be locked is probably an inevitable consequence, but before it does, I wanted to say my piece.

I'm not a winner, the bitch is gone, but a bitch less is a bitch less :/ It's becoming more of a sausage party as is, and it's starting to get annoying having no one to talk to. First Zenny went MIA, now you QQ. Bitch, y u gotta leave.

But in all honesty, anyone who can't admit that this post has at least some form of validity, she don't give a fuck if you deny it kids, you can all run backwards naked through a field of dicks. And in the spirit of the post, this is my farewell song to you Kyll (you won't like it, but I thought its message to be quite fitting):

I'm still in contact with people here so I was told of this.


I feel like I should say something by association/history, not much, but bye.

We started off as as "positive acquaintances" but then you really disliked me for one reason after the other that I don't agree with and drove me away, several times,  but I don't dislike you for it.  I just have more of a logical aversion to the site/you for it in the same way you don't poke a grumpy tiger or stick your hand in mud.


Not that I'm coming back just because you left even if you ever even read anything after posting that,  I'm not really interested in coming back for a number of reasons not the least of which are points you stated (Not regarding individuals).

But farewell. I hope you can shake off your bitterness in time.

Well Kyll, I never thought of you as a bitch, but more of a sister, and from deep down in my blackened heart i know you might be my friend in the long run. And yea this may be coming from a 12 year old with no life but i cant complain about things, my life is fucked up, but before I go and deal with my problems I gotta and pretty much have to be your friend, because that just brightens my heart to have at least one friend.

Sumdumguy: get the fuck off this board and get laid, drunk, or high. You need some normal teenage criminal acts over that angst you have. All that shit that you claim is "my fault" you did that to yourself. Guess what. The bitch is gone. You fucking win.

"get laid, drunk, or high."

If you say so. :V

Look I don't know what made you hate me so much. You said you saw me as a little brother at some point over Skype. I know I did some things I shouldn't have but jesus christ Kyll, I didn't mean it like THAT. In all honesty, I'm sorry. I really, truly am, if it even means anything to you anymore.

That's it, there's no reason for me to be long winded. I'm sorry.

Hi there! Have no idea who you are, maybe I do but who knows... Anyways, I hope you don't hold any hatred in your heart towards the people here. No matter what they've done to you. I hope and wish that what you've written here is what you needed to let it all go. Everything jotted down in your post is powerful, full of hatred and resentment, that I just seemed to have the need to have to post here to tell you that in leaving the site with your feelings like that would just cause you to self-destruct. Not everything is at it seems and not everything goes the way you've planned, but that's life and you've just got to pull through and put it all behind you to start anew. I hope that one day you may come back, perhaps under another name, and we two could meet and RP. I wish you the best of luck for the future. -Esther S.K.

im new here buuuut ive been on enougth RPs to understand where you are comeing from.

Although I knew ye little I did meet you a few times with a hello tis a shame to see you go, a friend in you I could have seen. So be on your journey and may the steel of your shovel make your enemies quiver in your wake.

I'm not even going to touch the bulk of this, as its not my concern. All I can really say is, I view every thread as character development, I'm just not one of those people who wants others forcing character development down their throat. Additionally, my reason for focusing on ranking up is simple, I feel that I'll have more fun with my character and magic at higher ranks. Something which to Exp changes have led me to give up on entirely. Since I went from being on the verge of a rank up to absolutely nowhere near close. And this is after an entire bloody year of just trying to reach the rank up I just got set-back heavily on. Anyways, I actually do agree with a few solid (people regarding) points you (Kyll) made in your post. While we didn't talk at all, and I always got the feeling you despised me completely, will oddly enough miss you. I hope that whatever ventures you partake in from here on out are successful.

Bye Kyll! Best of luck finding a place that is a better fit for you!

I really felt what you said and it kind of makes me embarrassed by my activities here at times. Between all the F bombs I think you pointed out the real various elephants in the various rooms. o-o I'm not gonna start preaching but I am going to say I really hope I take this wake up slap to get my own act together. Rp for Rp not for Exp.

I have no business what so ever here, but I wish to say a few things on this topic. Keep in mind I do feel sorry for you to go like this after what you have done here, and I really hope you can maybe come back someday to the site. 

About the talk of fan fiction I feel you are right in ways. I can't say myself that it doesn't exist because i have seen it even made it.:oops: I know it is stupid to have it here on this site and very degrading to the site.

I think it would also be better for you to calm down a little and think this out. As mentioned above most don't find you to be a "bitch." Most people don't seem to want you to go. You should also calm down a bit because of the way you are going to say farwell to everyone. A farwell like this may seem right and satisfying at first, but isn't exactly the greatest to look at later on. 

I have made too many points on what I shouldn't be rubbing my nose into, but I have a few more points. I do consider myself to be active, and I love doing plot over mission farming. I would much rather do an interesting storyline then do a mission. I find missions to be boring at points and some of them are just grind fests. I came here to in fact role play and not grind for ranks. I do however complete jobs and some are even solo. I feel that there are other people doing the exact same who are in fact active. Due to a recent update the edited the experience to rank up to be higher, which seemed bad as first, but seemed to be a blessing to me. It seems that increasing the experience required made me chill out more. I no longer wanted to get all the missions but to do a fun one every so often. I would rather do plot as i said before.

Not trying to be rude:

I am going to shut my mouth now. I think I have already stuck my nose in too deep. I feel the site with miss you.  :rendeer:

POSSIBLE SPOILERS TO FAIRY TAIL:

What matters most about RPing is the adventure. The moment we create our characters and make our magic (taking for granted that it is approved), we open a gate to a new world. How we use it is up to us as long as we are following the rules of the site, and we are ready to face the consequences for future actions. Some of us actually have characters who strive for the top, so whether we want to work for power or character development is up to us. I don't believe the cussing is necessary behind all of this. I cannot entirely support those who fail to show activity on the site, then ask for what they earned WHILE they were active to retrieve their necessities. On the other hand, I can see that they have went through the time and effort to attain what was rightfully theirs.

I believe the people that were mentioned honestly aren't bad people. In fact, from what I have seen, they are great. There was a reason as to why they earned positions of authority on the site. They proudly made themselves recognized on the site in a well-deserved manner- bright characteristics involved. Just because you dislike them in the present time doesn't mean you should judge them as if they have always been brutal. I also do not like the fact that most of us have been assumed deserving of the F-bomb. We all have something to offer to the site, and try our best to pay our respects, so give us a chance. Our actions in RP do not make is stupid because it is our time we spend working on our own characters. Working with others is a choice, which seems to be accepted almost always on the site- because we have warm hearts, don't we? You should look at us a second time Kyll.

I can see what you're getting at regarding the difference between IRL and online, but we are only human. Perhaps we want others to be online with us because we admire their company. If they are unavailable, so be it- end of story. You should not be worried about what others do because the actions people make on this site are entirely up to them. Take another look at my concept of adventure. People create their own stories, and develop both their own benefits and consequences. Unless their story brutally cuts into yours, leave them be. Also, you are always free to bail on others without debate if their content bothers you. People love their characters, which is why invading should be banned. Let people do what they want. This a place of freedom with the exception of rules that most of us respect anyway. The reason people join each other's threads is because they believe they can cooperate with another's storyline. If people break promises regarding cooperation, screw them. They can take a timeout.

To conclude, no matter how upset you may be, this FTRP is like a fantasy, and we all made our own tale. I sure know people on this site I cannot imagine, nor would like to RP with, but I just have to deal with it, don't I? And privately, in that matter- as it should be. The fact that we are all able to expose our imagination is brilliant, so don't belittle us in that fact. Perhaps the constant interferences in our stories is why we all get mad, and our experience no longer becomes as we wished for it to be. Again, as long as we are following rules, we should not have new events forced upon us. We should not have opinions destroy us. This is where we can all shine, and some of us like Heero have ever fought to emphasize this message.

I'm sorry about how complicated, scrambled or messed up this response may be; I just needed to expose my own thoughts because I believed I was affected. This whole rant seems against our imagination, anyway, which I cannot stand. We make decisions and suffer the consequences rightfully, just as we do IRL.

Everyone, this thread is closed. If you do not agree with Kylls views and decisions, fine, you have that right. But back the hell off. Most of you don't even know Kyll. You do not know where she is coming from. And I am frickin sick of some of what I have seen here. Thread CLOSED.